Things are going horribly in my life right now.. my fiance is pulling away from me because he claims to be home sick.. he moved 14 hours away.. but things have been okay... since may. but now with him pulling away... talking to all his ex's and all i can think of doing is relapsing... all i can think about is popping some vicodin.. and some ambien and just.. forget and get numb.... its so hard to stay sober... i know i need to but.. i cant think... i feel like nothing i do is good enough..
Hello everyone! I celebrated 6 years of sobriety on February 16,2018. I am very grateful for the time that I have. There has been so many before this date in which I find odd, but not coincidental. Life is as good as I let it become.
I have been having a really hard time admitting the truth to myself lately. You see, I have been 16 months sober, and in the past month I have been questioning whether I really was an alcohic, and wonder if I can "try" drinking again. I quit on my own and did not attend AA until I was 7 months in, and I didn't get a sponsor until It was a year. I smoked a little pot in the beginning, and...