I don't know why but my add my replies are not being added. This was meant for Getting off percosets

It can be difficult, as you say, and sometimes we need help from profesionals to get to underlying pain that may be blocking our chances at recovery. I had spent many years around recovery. i had gone over a lot of things in those years, and felt I was at the point that I was ready to shut the door on the past, and move on with my life. I felt that I had spent so much in the past, and I really wanted to move foreward. I went to a treatment center, and one of my asignments was to write about my father that had been dead for several years. Reluctantly I agreed to do it, but really felt it was a waste of time. I felt that I had reached a point of peace about everything, but while going back in the past, and bringing back to mind things i had not thought about in years, I started noticing that I was getting angry feelings after. This really surprised me a lot. I talked with the councilor about it. I found it kinda confusing. As I kept at it, I discovered that there were things that I had not been allowing myself to be angry about. There were also things that I hadn't allowed myself to be truthfull about, such as how my fathers drinking had affected me when I was younger. The whole thing allowed me to finally admit to myself some truths that I had felt guilty to do as a child. I was brought up that you didn't say certain things about your father, because he was your father. By the end I was able to finally admit that my father was an alcoholic, and at times was abusive verbally, and physically. I still love my father, and he was a very good man. He did the best he could with what he had learned growing up. His parents died early, and he was often abused himself by his sisters. I also picked up a lot of his traits that had a big impact on my life that caused a lot of pain for myself, and others that I loved. What this helped me to do was forgive and understand my father. We all learn both good and bad things, but it doesn't mean that our actions are always intentional, and sometimes we just do what we have been taught and then pass it on to others. I still love my father, but I don't feel angry about a lot that I used to. This topic is very good. Thanks for bringing it up. All the best. James