Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Support Group

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countingmyblessings
countingmyblessings

I'm new to this place, not only to this sight/chat but new to the new "normal"...???? wt??? You've gotta b kidding? Why can't I make the damn genie go back in the bottle?? Feels like all the childhood, early adult and first marriage trauma pouring out on my head or wracking me from within. You can't seriously mean I have to live with this? It does get quieter with the right help?? right mind games? right medicine? Sigh. I know I know radical acceptance and all that rot-yeah ok but one nightmare at a time please.

GrassIsGreen
GrassIsGreen
Welcome to D.S
Community LeaderLeo
Leo
With respect, and a warm puma purr, to heck with "radical acceptance". Any acceptance takes time. I thought my childhood was 'normal' till suddenly my brain let the zommbies out of the basement, and here I am a decade later wondering, still, how I come to fully accept that this is what was, and what is. *Some* acceptance is how to start, is my only advice. Wish I had a cure, instead.
arfie
arfie
in my own case, in retrospect, i no longer believe that proverbial genie never did stay in its proverbial bottle. i just convinced myself that the toxic gases wafting up from the internal rot of all that denial and repression were a magical genie granting my wishes to be the perfect person i thought i should be.

but that is me and every case is unique. one person's rot is another person's hope.

steadying support while you sort your own
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Welcome, countingmyblessings, sorry for all of the pressing questions but glad you came to us with them because we all have them, too. "Chronic and not curable" is hard to live with. Sending you support.
countingmyblessings
countingmyblessings
OMG! Thank you all for all these warm and encouraging responses! wow! excellent, first of all! Yeah, damn I wish I could've orchestrated the time and place of my breakdown. Really inconvenient all around. My life was ordered, maybe even compartmentalized, my coping mechanisms- went from managing an Assisted Living Facility to breaking the pellets loaded in our pellet stove to make them all the same size. Next thing I know I'm throwing plates and a bowl near my husband and just coming apart. Therapy helps when its available but I'm gonna need more support than that. Again, gracias.
countingmyblessings
countingmyblessings
Thank you all.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
We're with you, countingmyblessings, every day. You've got that support you need here for sure. Been there, done that, so we get it. You can count on us.
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