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Here I go, waxing metaphorical again... Alas, I do not believe I have a choice. We have more precise terminology for describing the surface of Mars than for describing the wounds of our psyche...
A pattern I seem to have noticed in my personal madness is that a hyper-expressive gushing seems to accompany each step forward. Never have quite determined if it is before, after or during the breaking of a dam. At first it seems to be a journalistic gushing. Who. What. When. Why. Where. Some of you may have noticed that I have been in this phase for several weeks now.
My physical self is typically somewhere in the primal directive of "Freeze, Flight and Fight" during this gushing. I consider it progress that I have been able to arrest my physical state at "Freeze" during recent rounds. I am getting better at holding my ground without picking fights.
This morning finds me wondering if somewhere within yesterday's "DIY Gaslighting" ramble the journalistic gushing phase might have spent itself. I am ready to confront, one by one, those small lies I tell myself to distract myself from personal truths.
The next phase seems to be the gushing of reforms I "need" to make in order to live a better life. This is where I set myself up for failure by taking on too much at once. This is the phase I seem to be in this morning. Reminding myself that easy does it.
How am I doing???
We'll see. Off to the garage to see if I can stay in motion with a "boy toy" in my hand. This place really does need some mow action, even by Weed Witch standards.
The good news of the morning is that my beloved is taking a four day weekend starting tomorrow. COMPANY!!!!
A pattern I seem to have noticed in my personal madness is that a hyper-expressive gushing seems to accompany each step forward. Never have quite determined if it is before, after or during the breaking of a dam. At first it seems to be a journalistic gushing. Who. What. When. Why. Where. Some of you may have noticed that I have been in this phase for several weeks now.
My physical self is typically somewhere in the primal directive of "Freeze, Flight and Fight" during this gushing. I consider it progress that I have been able to arrest my physical state at "Freeze" during recent rounds. I am getting better at holding my ground without picking fights.
This morning finds me wondering if somewhere within yesterday's "DIY Gaslighting" ramble the journalistic gushing phase might have spent itself. I am ready to confront, one by one, those small lies I tell myself to distract myself from personal truths.
The next phase seems to be the gushing of reforms I "need" to make in order to live a better life. This is where I set myself up for failure by taking on too much at once. This is the phase I seem to be in this morning. Reminding myself that easy does it.
How am I doing???
We'll see. Off to the garage to see if I can stay in motion with a "boy toy" in my hand. This place really does need some mow action, even by Weed Witch standards.
The good news of the morning is that my beloved is taking a four day weekend starting tomorrow. COMPANY!!!!
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Hey all, i know its been quite awhile since i posted on here. Its been a summer all right. Its been something else........... You know how they say not to open the can of worms? Well a few months ago i decided to find out what my due date would have been for my first baby, the one conceived by r***. My baby would have been due on March 4th of 2006. They would be 20 years old. I was R**** on June...
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My day...today...misplaced my debit card...didn't realize it until I got to the register after shopping to a full cart. Used a different debit card and pulled apart everything looking for missing debit card before I left parking lot. Got home, dropped keys. So now I have a missing debit card, missing keys. A full cartload to unload and put away. I got everything put away.Dumped purse for a...
I'm so glad your beloved is coming to spend four days with you. Please tell him (if it seems at all right to you) that you have been advised that some pampering is in order. He ought to pamper you a little!
Sorry if I misunderstood the opening post.
Whack away today!
Jewlels.
Rizen, I don't I understand what I am sorting through, either. This be a quest for clarity. I like your approach to projects. I still haven't made it into the garage, but my newest garden bed is looking great!!!