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arfie 12/26/2016

This morning finds me wondering if I am on the verge of making my peace with Unanswered Questions. Just wondering. Among my unanswered questions is, "Am I there yet? Is this moment of peace sustainable or is it just the calm before yet another psychotic storm?"

I can't remember the last time I agonized over the unanswered questions. I still wonder, but the wonder is more like watching the cloud shapes drift and morph randomly over my head. I can wonder without the compulsion to jump up and write an algorhythm which can predict the next shape of the cloud. There is no urgency to obtain The Definative Answer. I can just let the mystery be and enjoy the show.

Dunno. . . Maybe just psychopating.

Thoughts, opines and non-sequitars welcome.

Leo 12/26/2016

I havew brief moments of "Eh, it is, and therefore I am not needed to explain/answer/fix it". I treasure them. I think of them as moments when my fear of Unknown has taken a break and is letting me have one, too....

Just where your ramble took my brain. Support, always.

DarkGypsyG 12/26/2016

over the years i've had to get used to when things are ok. it threw me into fight/flight/freeze at first. now though i recognize it and its not so bad.

i've always preferred to described my journey as riding the thermals. some times i catch one that takes me up real high. then i gotta swoop down for a while. then sometimes get to ride several up and up on different currents. the clouds are always amazing when i'm on those up drafts. whats even better is on the down draft the stormy clouds don't bother me as much as they used too.

this is how i relate to being ok when stuff is ok. not so much of a "am i there yet?" as a "i am where i am." -Pip

patti22 12/26/2016

I put some mental "stuff" in piles of things that just don't need answered. I just don't have the interest in wrestling with my own person ghosts anymore.

Time2livelife 12/26/2016

Hugs arfie.

lilmissy7 12/26/2016

Sometimes when I'm freaking out I try to take one day at a time or one moment at a time or one hour at a time. lol which is kinda funny me saying this cause man if you guys would have seen some of the 'moments of melt down I was having a couple hours ago I'm sure people would be laughing at me saying this. Sometimes when if freaking out I try to calm myself down by saying "do I have to figure this all out today... no, no I don't"

Idk if any of that made sense to ya, but I hope in any way that helps.
Sending you a hug :)

whales86 12/26/2016

For a long time I would freak out till I made something go wrong when thing were going right. I'm finally at a place where I can enjoy the goood times. I'm doing indeapth work to work through the childhood crap and PTSD issues to make them non issue maybe. I hope to at least get closer to normal. I hv a lot to deal with. He only way I could hv gotten to being close to doing this is to be watching the clouds go by and wounded what animal or shape they make not what shoe is going to drop
Just my two cents

mujicaptsd 12/26/2016

(Hmmm....Thought I'd posted this this morning. Let's see if it posts now....)

Unanswered Questions is why I hope, if there is a heaven where requests are granted, I get a Wikipedia Angel assigned to me. We'll start with "so what was up with the platypus?" and go from there. I have an eternity of Unanswered Questions, so we'll be able to take our time. Much support as you live with the questions, arfie.

Muskoka007 12/27/2016

Arfie, when I read what you post, which I totally can relate to it reminded me of something. I have a very intuitive friend who once said that she sensed my subconscious ran on "when is something going to go wrong". It rang true, whenever something nice happens, I get this uneasy feeling. I am happy she said this as it is at least not so buried deep in the subconscious. Wish I could just remove the wiring of that in my head lol

rainbowlegacym55 12/27/2016

I for one have experienced you as someone who has some pretty highs and lows yet you seem to be able to come back to the middle after getting it all out,, Keep the oars I the water and go for shore

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