I have that, too, Toughassteele, and I've had it for years now.

Trigger Warning

I'll be relaxing on the couch after work and dinner watching tv. Then some song or image on a random show will send me to the bathroom to vomit as part of a sudden panic attack.

When I was married and had someone else living in the house with me, it was even harder on me. They found it harder to accept that PTSD could work that fast on a person out of nowhere. So there would be an evening of explaining, which made it worse for me.

It's tough to be divorced, but at least living alone, after I go and vomit, the panic attack has peaked. I can settle myself down without having to do any explaining, because I just know it's PTSD and it will pass.

What I'm sharing is no cure, I'm sorry to say, but you're not alone. I'm glad you're not cutting over this.

I go through it too, esp the anger. My roommate's kid is going through the terrible 2s more than usual in the morning. Normally I tune it out but lately I want to get up and scream, "Shut that kid up already! It's 6am!" Of course I don't and go back to ignoring it. I know normally things like that might annoy me, esp at that hour, but i'd never scream at a child and never have.

So I take a step back and remind myself that what I'm feeling is ptsd. It was triggered badly by recent contact with my parents. Everything seems heightened, sound, light, pain, everything. I keep reminding myself that it will subside and that I see my emdr therapist tomorrow who I hope can help.

We go through periods of more triggers for whatever reason but it does pass. Just hold on.

Thank you for your support. Been trying to handle it.

Gentle hug while you work through the hard times.....xo

Men who don't have custody..get sympathy.

Women who don't have custody...get condemned.


I think of you from time to time, but don't know what to say. The courts aren't always just, and in some places of the country, mental health issues are used against a person in the courtroom. It's not fair. Just know that I care.

Thank you. It gets hard some times to deal with. I appreciate the support

You betcha, Toughassteele. Like soulsearcher said, I've found, too, that "it does pass." So I say, too, "hold on." To what I don't know, but holding on to whatever's handy seems to work until it passes.