The times I posted before were just ptsd which is enough in itself to deal with now a collect taking out money out of my bank account do not have in there and cannot come close too (they garnished my wages) and I had no clue they could do this and my account is frozen for 15 to 30 days over it. Cannot pay rent, car ins., and etc... I see nway out over drawn more than I make.

P.S. another one right behind it......

You sound suicidal. Please get help.

I don't think God is sending you signals to kill yourself. Maybe he just want's you to trust more that you'll get through this.

Hugs.

I am thinking a lot of us are in a similar boat on the same stinky creek. DS glitches are eating my journals and even threw me out of my own, and I feel like I'm so wrecked emotionally I might as well be stuck in 1984, and.... yeah...

but vent it out here, and we're here, we get it.

God doesn't tell people to give up. Depression does. God's eternal. Depression ain't. That's what I keep telling myself. And gentle healing thoughts to you....
Leo

I often believe that the angels can manipulate the electron transmissions we call the internet with far greater ease than they can manipulate our physical world. When am believing that and "they" mess with one of my transmissions, I believe I hear them whisper, "Keep trying. Rewrite." Or, "Keep trying. Look elsewhere."

Same for those 20 steps back in my physical world. When I look back on the 18 year old, culturally and personally beaten teenage prostitute I was in 1972 when I started therapy, I do not see how she could possibly have gotten all the fixes right in the first draft. It took a whole lot of re-writes to get from there to here. I am still far from perfection, but I am learning to work with the process instead of fighting the flow.

Which does not imply anything easy or justy about what you are going through, cj. Sending you sustaining hopes and prayers for healing.

cipfaz, Hang on we're here. Just a thought...if you are renting where you had to put down last months rent or a security deposit....is it possible to ask to use it to cover next month's rent....and when you can sort out your account after the 15-30 days...make some kind of arrangement to replace lmr/security even a little at a time?? PTSD is enough to deal with....Thoughts and Prayers for you...I don't know why...I just noticed your avi....beautiful little kitten face!! Keep Hope going!

Coming to believe at this point there is no way out of this, except one.

There is always another way out, cj. Especially in money matters.

Please keep sorting. We are listening.

Nah. God doesn't do that. Things just got screwed up. That's human mistake, not godly assertion of your giving up. My version of The Infinite would never do such a thing. I've gone a step forward and 10 back before. It's disheartening. It's hard. God never punishes or tells you to give up. Pray, if that's how you do. Meditate if that's how you do. The Infinite is bigger than any of us can imagine, but try to imagine it as big as universes, all time, all space, all knowledge. Let it in to help you. Sending good thoughts.

You know how it is when you stop looking up and start looking down that is where I am at right now.
So very fepressed...it I'd a lot of crap + this. I know lower one of meds may be part of it, but I find I don't care anymore.

Yes, I know that place all too well.
I am there right now...
It helps to share the load.
Thank you for sharing, cj.
Together we can make it through.

just had a fight with my fiance who suffers from PTSD also. Locked myself in my room Afraid my fiance will do something, but I really don't want to go out.

You are both doing very badly...

I urge y'all to get help, even go to the ER if one or both of you need it.