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So me and my husband got in a fight today all I could feel and see was the color red the rage in side of me overwelmed me I stated yelling and shaking...after it all happen and I calmed down I feel better but I feel horrible I don't jnoiw what to say or do to tell him I'm sorry
I don't know what happen it happen so fast the rage inside of me. Now I feel numb, almost as if I'm not here but I am I don't know how to explain it.
Thoughts??
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My day...today...misplaced my debit card...didn't realize it until I got to the register after shopping to a full cart. Used a different debit card and pulled apart everything looking for missing debit card before I left parking lot. Got home, dropped keys. So now I have a missing debit card, missing keys. A full cartload to unload and put away. I got everything put away.Dumped purse for a...
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I don't really know how to label this but I having a rough week and I can't say it's one thing.... I have a lot on my plate which is nothing new and I try to cope in many positive ways and do but I still have my moments.My kids more so my daughters talk to me about everything which I know it's cause of comfort and we are close.... however I really struggle with the venting about their dad which...
I dissociate (go numb and disappear inside myself) after my explosive rages. It's like the explosion sucks the life right out of me and I'm afraid to let myself out of my "cage" without a muzzle and a handler equipped with a taser gun. The good news is that therapy work has helped me recognize and deal my anger before it has a chance to go "BOOM."
As for making amends to my husband after I have exploded at him. . . In addition to the most honest and sincere disclosure I can muster to what's going on, I believe that working my therapy program is the best amends available to me. I need to put a qualifier on the honest and sincere disclosure because. . . Well. . . Those explosive rages are even more confusing on the inside than they are on the outside.
I agree with arfie: If you can express what happened, what it felt like to your husband it may make it easier to deal with. I know it's a huge challenge trying to put something in words that is so confusing and so hard to explain. It may help to say: "I'm confused and not sure about how I can explain this."
Of course I can't tell, but could it be that the rage has built up inside you for a longer period of time?
You say you miss therapy... any chance you could get to see a therapist?
Wishing you all the best
I miss the feeling of being able to talk about my feelings and everything that goes on in my head.
I bet I sound crazy as all get out...I'm sorry for that.
* listening to you, believing you and being there *