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... we have no boarders here. New cities are a pain. But the world here is a keystroke away!.
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Jewell

Thank you. Nice to know I'm not alone.

GF, Actually this is a pretty active board and our members are from all hemispheres. Some may answer at different times because of time zone differences.. or sleep schedules.
J.
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Hi, GF. Welcome to the forum.

Little things can make big diffs. Hope joining here was a little thing that can make a big diff in turning that downward spiral around. Healing hopes.

Gypsy, just take small steps. Meet ppl again only one at a time and get comfortable talking to them, Then go on and meet another. Include the first person you became friends with. Then go on and do the same things with another person. Stop at about two or three so you dont get overwhelmed. You and your family have gone through quite an upset. You lives will right around.

All the support here is wonderful. I appreciate it very much. Unfortunately looks like I will be doing this without my husband. The fire caused us both to drink to a point where we aren't going to work. He cheated I blacked out and did some very stupid stuff. All because neither of us wanted to deal with the stress and anxiety of the fire. Never thought I'd get to this very scary place.

Gypsy, so sorry for the tragedy of that fire. It shakes a person to the core to be visited by loss on that grand scale. Afterward a tragedy like that leaves us with a sense of just how fragile every we take for granted around us really can be. I know from experience, as many others here do, too.

Please don't think that you and your husband are the only ones who self medicated with liquor. Many of us here have also found ourselves behaving after a tragedy in ways that made us not even recognize who we were any more. A desperation to do something, anything to change the story sometimes overtakes our better judgment. Be gentle and forgiving with yourself. We understand.

This is a safe place for working on your story and finding healthy ways to change it. Repetition brings mastery, I've found. The more we repeat the story of our tragedy, the more we become authors with authority over it. Friends in other places can't take the amount of repetition it takes, but here we can.

Feel free to look at it from all angles until you find the one that helps you move forward and be positive again. We are your witnesses to the process of getting better. Sorry for what happened to you, but glad you're here in this healing place.