As I have pondered the results of my recent "Testing" post, the term, "Gaslighting" has been floating through the ponderations like a street sign. When I finally started taking my amnesia therapy seriously in the mid to late 80's, the term was used extensively to help me explore what was going on with my memory dysfunctions and resulting psychoses (pl). I was self-gaslighting like a toxic mother and the result was a whole lot of false memories and even hallucinations as the memory blocks came down and I worked frantically to stuff them back in their cages. At least, that was the popular theory of the day. I am not even close to confident that I am remembering that correctly, much less translating it into 21st century psycho theory with any accuracy. The current wonder in the meditative wander is if the trigger effect I have been experiencing in this forum is evolutionary gaslighting. Primitive and fractured as my psychotherapy has been since 1972 when I was still living in the throw-away kid camps, it is what I have to work with and it is where I placed my faith in the recovery from child sex trafficking, a la Happy Days. Back when a White Trash Whore was a public toilet with a very short life expectancy. By whatever rapid-cycling name, that psychotherapy remains vital to my psychic stability. My memory was damaged badly enough that it seems likely I never will have "Normal" memory functions.
Is the term still in use? Have any of the up-to-date PTSD experts ever discussed it? Any suggestions on how to translate the theory set on, "Gaslighting" into 21st century cPTSD theory?
For what it's worth:
I seem to recall the term being equally, possibly even more popular in discussion of "Revisionist History" and propaganda campaigns.
....have I ever given up on anything or anyone but I'm done. Just done. I have nothing left. All the DBT training and counseling aren't even scratching the surface. Meds aren't working. There isn't a psychiatrist in town tha will take me on. My history is too difficult. So I'm done too.
My anxiety levels have been through the roof in recent weeks. This week I even have a literal component to the roof I have been going through. Roofing work on the Brood House with prayers that the Brood House and the Honey Barn will look like a matched set by the end of the rennovation. Yesterday morning, after the roofing crew postponed their work on account of weather, I declared myself to be...