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Sorry guys and gals

seanmarsh33
seanmarsh33
Well long story short did not go into hospital. Not by my choice. Minor setback. Have not been on lately because in bad but not entirely bad place. Anyways here is poem word. Burning.

Burning through the Afterglow
Burning through the Afterflow
Burning through the Sorrow
Burning through the bone
Burning through the Marrow
Burning through the Pain

Burning, Burning, Burning
White Hot
am I burning through only to be
stopped, stuck
insane? Sean
LeoX3
LeoX3
Burning removes
Purifies
Hurts like eighty hells
But then
Leaves only soft white ashes
Easily blown away
To show the bedrock truth.

And I am glad you are here, and am in a misery-marsh myself this week...
seanmarsh33
seanmarsh33
Well LillyPotter actually, I think it might be better if I was in hospital. Thanks for the hugs. LeoX2 Thanks for the poem it really hit home. Kinda funny about the misery-marsh reference that happens to be my last name.
arfie
arfie
Stopped, stuck and insane
In that pile of white hot ash
The phoenix rekindles another white hot flame
To burn a stronger self
Out of the regrets, anger and shame.

Stay strong, Sean. Sorry for the setback. Good to see you back here.
LeoX3
LeoX3
Whoops, sorry, Sean, didn't mean anything by the misery-marsh. I also call it the sorrow-swamp and the bummers-bog, depends how sucked into it I feel. I really need to think before I type, so sorry!
jewells1
jewells1
White hot memories.
So cold and so dark.
In my head turning.
Who can see how much they hurt,
So cold, so cold, they're burning.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Your poem reminded me of a conversation I had with someone this past weekend about that unusual annual festival they have called "Burning Man."

But I digress. Most of all I was wondering how youve been. Like Lilly I noticed you were gone a while. You OK?
seanmarsh33
seanmarsh33
LillyPotter no need to be sorry. You did not sound uncaring at all. It was just going into the VA Hospital was going to get everything straight. Meds, groups, etc.
Something beyond are control kept me from getting to hospital.
seanmarsh33
seanmarsh33
LeoX3. No need to apologize. I meant it sincerely it was cool and funny about the Misery-Marsh and my last name. I liked it.
seanmarsh33
seanmarsh33
Yeah everybody I am fine. However I would be lying if I said I was not having a bad time right now. Just getting hit from all sides, and my mind is multiplying that ten fold. But it will pass, hopefully soon.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Oh, just hold it together, Sean. We are here for you!
seanmarsh33
seanmarsh33
Thanks everyone. It is starting to lift but still feel aftershocks.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Glad theres some lift, steady as she goes with the aftershocks.
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