Rose,

There is a national service through the Deaf Counseling Center. The can provide ASL therapy services through many insurance companies and also offer sliding scale and pro bono services. They specialize in ASL therapy and counseling. Here is their site;

https://www.deafcounseling.com/

Good luck. I hope you feel better soon.

Hi Secouya,
Thanks for the info. I am in FL but I emailed them,

Hi rose,
I’m sorry you’re feeling so sad.
I really related when you wrote that how you have to fight very hard and pray not to get angry or bitter or hateful because how life is, I feel like that as well.

I’m glad that your current therapist was good & I hope moving forward something good happens for you.

Sending lots of support your way
Big hug <3

I too am sorry to hear of your circumstances. I lost my wonderful pdoc to retirement early last year and have been unable to find a good new one. I'm glad you will have this psychologist of these weeks and hope she finds some loop hole to extend it for you. Hugs

Thanks, I hope I can find one this is like her or better. Thanks for understanding. I pray that it will be possible even though I am acting like it won't be possible. I have no feeling and I think that I turn it off ( easy to turn off my feeling because use to not having any before).

I hope you can find another like her or better, too, rose07042k. Wow, what a time to have to transition to another pdoc. I went through a transition in 2011 away from the one and only pdoc who "got" me.

I had to because my job folded where I lived in the USA's Midwest. The college where I taught then had its endowment hit hard in the 2008 financial crisis, nothing personal. I had to move to the USA's East Coast to find work at the community college where I teach now.

It was hard to end my relationship with that one Midwestern pdoc who finally got after 12 years of other docs with whom I didn't have that close connection. When I moved here to the East Coast for work, I had no reason in my PTSD therapy track record to believe it wouldn't be another 12 years before I got a pdoc with that kind of close connection again.

But instead of having to wait for 12 years for another close pdoc, it turned out that I've had my second good PTSD pdoc for the last 9 years instead.

Glad you posted about it here now so you wouldn't have to ride out this transition alone. When I remember my own transition from my Midwestern pdoc to this one I have now here on the East Coast, I can imagine how bad that feels for you right now. It sucks when financial issues like my former college going broke or the grant supporting your pdoc interfere with our PTSD recovery. I really does.

We're with you. You're not alone in this. I joined this group at DS PTSD at that very time to help get me through. It worked. Keep posting here about this so maybe it can work for you, too, ok?

Thanks, Mujicaptsd. I appreciate it.

You betcha, rose.

Today I had a session with my current therapist and I am going to miss her. He willingness to learn and to slow down and understand me is amazing. She challenges my thinking and understand me and wants to see it from my eye point of view. I never had one like her before. She thinks I will find one better than her BUT she does not understand she is the first like this. Even though she can be strick she is cool, I cannot believe that I am going to lose her even though I have lost so much in my life. It is hard on me physically.

It's a hard transition to make when we have to go from a therapist to whom we've really opened up on to a new unknown one, rose0704k. I remember. It was hard on me when I had to do it. Feel free to lean on us any time as you go through it, OK? We're here for you.

Hi Mujicaptsd,
Thanks, I appreciate it. It is hard to open up to new people even a new therapist that is why I wish to stay with current. My therapist is been patience with me at this time

I hear you, rose, it's a hard task to take on when you realize you've got to go back to square one and open up all of that old stuff all over again. Then there's not only the hard task you've got before you, then there's the uncertainty about how the other person will receive it. Like whether this new therapist will have patience like the other one did. You're not alone, lots of us here know how risky it feels. Be sure of one thing: this is a place where folks have patience with each other. Lean on us as you got through this, it's your safe space.

Hi,
Thanks I appreciate it. I am having a hard time signing and emailing the consent for my current therapist to speak to the new therapist. Yet the new therapist can only see me for a year or a year plus then I have to transfer again, hopefully to a therapist long term. I does not like this process but it is not a good situation that I am in and there is nothing can be done.

In July I am going to be on both Medicare and Medicaid. My current therapist only take Medicaid which mean that by June 17th I have to transfer from her. But I will not be able to see any therapist until July when Medicare become primary.

The therapist who is new is grant funded therefore I can see her only for a year or a year plus. My current therapist painted a pic where it is the best to go with this current therapist because if I wait until June and July comes around she will be sad that I did not connect with someone. Plus my current therapist painted a pic that I does not know what a year or year plus with this new therapist can hold. She list things like I will grow more because this therapist is using ASL which is best for me because sometimes I does not want to talk. She also stated that no one know but within a year so many things could changed and I might have more opportunity then now plus I will get a change to learn about medicare and medicaid works.

What my current stated seems fair and wise and so I decided to stay and the new therapist for a year or a year plus BUT, there is a but. The other things is I am becoming sick over this and the new therapist want me to tell my current therapist and I did and she did not respond ( I think because she already knew that). I understand that my therapist want me to focus on the positive side of what might happen and I do know it is a difficult task because I does not have much choose BUT.

I have no real feeling with this process or arrangement (New therapist) but I think I does not want to feel and is just in a what ever mood. Anyways thanks.

Big hug for you Rose..... A lot can be accomplished in a year …. I hope that it really helps you... I'm really sorry that you're losing your present therapist

She may be able to refer you to some peer support to add to the therapy and who know what may be available after a year

I was in a cognitive support group years ago for about a year and it helped me a great deal

Big hug..... I hope that it's going to help you a great deal.....xo

I hope that it will so with me. Thanks so much