What are the problems with your dad?

Running away without a plan for your safety and wellbeing would be putting yourself at risk of being hurt more and that's the last thing you need or deserve. Before taking such drastic and dangerous action, how about figuring out what you need in terms of boundaries and safety, and letting your mom know about it? I'm wondering if you could explain that unless your needs are met - your need to feel safe and to have your boundaries respected - you are going to have to leave. And if you do feel you have to leave, try to do so in a planned way so that you can do it safely. I am sure you don't want to be in a situation where you may be victimized again.

I'm feeling much better I don't want to leave anymore but it steel feels like something is missing inside me maybe I need a vacation where I don't have to worry about my situation. I don't know.

I agree with donna completely. YOU MATTER. I know you don't feel it now, but you do.

Than you I've never had so much support before

I am an intercontinental frequent flier, with understandable reasons for why I have been running away most of my life. Understandable, but far from okay. My flight instinct is so over-developed that a big part of my psychotherapy was focused on distinguishing the difference between "running from" and "going to."

I still love to travel. My travels are far better since I started going to instead of running away.

Be patient, Ciar. When the time is right, all the pieces will be there.

I think about running all the time. I just don't want to hurt my family. It's very overwhelming going through day by day. You just try to stay positive

I try to be positive everyday I'm just tired of feeling locked in all of the problems I just want to get away from it all I just want some time to be set free from my troubles

I.F. running could free me of my problems, I would be the freest soul on the planet. I have been running since my parents ran away from home when I was one year old. I am not the freest soul on the planet. Even when I unpack my problems to leave them behind, I get to my first rest stop and find my problems jumping out of my backpack and scurrying to pee in my oatmeal. Sigh. Doesn't seem to be enough positive energy in the world to banish those devils.

Wish I had an easy out for both of us, Ciar. Till then. . . I'm a takin' ^it^ one crisis at a time. Continued support while you find what works for you.

I don't want to deal with my crisis anymore I can't talk to my mom because she gets frustrated and yells at me or if she's putting attention on me my sister get jealous and says she's depressed and no one cares and how much she wants to kill herself and it's tiring I need my mom too but my sister does t let me

If you're comfortable with it, explaining about what your dad does might help people understand your situation better.

My was arrested in August for child porn and he had traded videos and pictures of me he had secretly took of me and traded them over the Internet. I'm a victim of child porn and I don't want to be I don't want to deal with it

I think it might be good to ask a school councilor or therapist for help. You don't want to go into another bad situation.

Sorry you have to deal with this. Hope it gets better.

I have bothbut I still just want leave everything behind me

running away is not a solution