Is there some sort of crisis line you could call? Did you call the police? I am sorry sorry this happened to you. Please try and find someplace or someone to reach out too in your area.

Merry Christmas! Sorry you’re going through that my sons had to go through that quite a few times when he was younger in those kind of places. Thank God things are better for him now and he lives with us. The best way I’ve found to not feel alone and I have people around me is to do something for somebody else. When you do something for somebody else he usually includes other people. That gives me the most joy when I can do some for someone else. Hopefully you’re out of that place soon and back home..

Peace and joy to you this wonderful time of year when we celebrate our Christ Jesus our Savior born For our salvation

I am so sorry. It's hard to know their "why" and will not justify what they have done to you.

I would turn to rainn.org. See if they can help you find some connections in your area.

Save clothing, etc for DNA. Call police. Contact rainn.org for help through the whole process. They can help stand with you.... you definitely need support through this.

I would also encourage you to write down everything you remember... put EVERYTHING... even if it seems unimportant.

Time? How many? What wearing? Sound of voice? Certain smells? Height/build? What did they touch? Etc

You are not just a victim right now.... You are a survivor.

Personally, I don't want to know the reasoning of sick people in my head. Keep your reasons to yourself, bubba. I find more value in knowing how to heal from the madness.

Listening, SOM. We're here for you. You are not alone. Keep venting. . . The venting can double as helpful details for the police report.

Strength, this is awful, I'm so sorry this happened to you. Please know we care, as arfie says, and that with us here you're not alone, we're here for you so vent away.

Strength of Mind, so sorry this happened to you. I believe bluejay gives some very practical advice with the link to rainn. And I hope you have called the police and reported this. Be careful not to accept the "why" that the criminals gave you. You wrote that they raped you because you had nothing under the tree for them to steal. Maybe they told you that, but the real reason is because they were bad men choosing to do bad. Nothing you did or didn't do was the cause. They are bad. They chose bad. They are the cause.

The hospital you described sounds horrible, like it should probably be decertified (or whatever they call it) and closed.

I've heard that it can be important to remind yourself of the fact that the event is over and you have survived (even though you may still be feeling the effects of it).

I hope the police will catch these people soon and that they will be sent to a prison worse than the hospital you described for a very, very, very, very, very.......very long time.

Again, so sorry this happened to you.

Strength, Agree with all the above. Heart goes out to you. These are sick people doing really sick things. Hoping you have found some resources to help you heal from this. Healing and comforting hugs.

There are plenty of helplines you can call if you need talk to someone. I dont know where u are but if u can come on ds then u can probably search google for rape crisis numbers in your area or country atleast. I wish u peace.

I am SO sorry you are going thru this! I was raped by someone i knew when i was 20, i am now 35 its been almost 15 years now. Biggest thing i can say is DO contact the police i waited 6 weeks and all i ended up with was a PPO (Personal protection order) Write down every detail like someone else told you no matter how small! Every detail matters! If you file a police report and remember some detail no matter how small after call and let the officer handling your case know! I am so proud of you for reaching out i told no one at all for 6 weeks until i fell apart at a family get together in front of everyone and it all spilled out. I am so sorry you have noone around you to be with and lean on! You do have us!!! I know its not the same but vent all you need to and reach out on here! Do you have an abuse shelter around you? Ours also offering counseling and support and helps with other resources. Praying you get the help you need and those (cant say the word i want too here) end up in prison and rot there! There is NO excuse or reason for anyone to ever do this to anyone!

I am a 70 year old male & I would never & I repeat never do that to any women. I would like to get my hands on them & remove certain parts of their anatomy. Listen to what the others said here & call the police. Also I am praying for you. Sugar Bear!!!

Gentle hug Strength … I am so very sorry..... This is terrible.... I agree to call the police and they will be able to advise you ….. I am so very, very sorry that this happened to you....xo

Here are some Crisis Resources

https://support.dailystrength.org/hc/en-us/articles/207430776-What-if-I-need-emergency-help-