i've meet someone whom i thought i'd share the rest of my life with. I matured and tried to settle, and even planning for my future with him. I've done everything even if  i've spent 5 months away from him but when i came back everything was changed. he has changed. His plans for future has changed. It's gotta be me when i left, but someone took my place when i get back. then i just get onto the process of moving on in just 2 days then poooof! pain was gone. after a year, he's back and all my pain also comes back but it's more than tenths of folds that it came to the point that i need to see a psychologist for counseling. what i've learned? It's better to face your pain now than later because there's no other way of escaping it but to accept.