Thanks for the healing thoughts, my friends. I slept it until almost 11am today, Saturday. Hoping the rest and antibiotics get the fever to break any time now. I'd like that, because I'm having more flashbacks from PTSD due to my fever. Happens every time I have a fever, and then being more susceptible to flashbacks diminishes, although I always have some every day healthy or not. Looking forward to its passing.

Healing wishes ... xx

Feel better soon Muji (((hugs))) love Manda xx

It's been a long week here sorry so late on this Muji. But I do hope today brings the ebbing of the fever...If not check in with the doc's ER line for instruction.. You maybe able to go into the hospital and have Sundays tests started now. As well as some blood work done to make sure you haven't added a cold or flu to the pot. That way they can keep up on the fever/dehydration factor. That's a serious consideration with any kidney compromise issue. It can get away too easily. ( :( my John) If they need to augment fluids let them do it. I would rather have you here triggered getting support than any other alternative that jumps in my brain.
My heart and prayers mi' amigo.
Jewells

I hope you feeling better after a nice day of rest...!!! I'm sorry for the increased flashbacks... I hope you have some fun distracting things to do while your resting... A good book of maybe a funny tv show on netflix... Sending you comforting supportive energy!!! And lots of healing to you...!!! ((((((Hugs muji))))))

I just want to add that you are doing more than something right... You are living with love in your heart and that shines through and touches other peoples loving souls... Such as your student, and all of us on DS PTSD, especially me muji... I appreciate having a friend like you because you help me practice trusting my intuition... You seem to me to be good people and I have so enjoyed seeing your kindness and love shine through your every post...!!! So just a heart felt thank you for being you...!!!

Sorry Muji for bad news. Hugs.

that is tough new to swallow. you are doing the right thing trying to get back to one day at a time. When you examine the facts you do not know the future and what it holds. Worrying now does no go, your emotional mind is telling you stories, pushing regrets and beating you up at a time when you need to support yourself.

I know t is hard. I am struggling with a biopsy result that I get next week. The post few days I have had unusual pain and in the area of the biopsy and I keep thinking it is cancer. My emotional mind is connecting the pain to cancer. I have to keep reminding myself it is not true. I do not have the results and until I have the results I am guessing and worrying for nothings. Even if I do have cancer worrying is not going to help me. I have to face the fear of the unknown and move beyond it to solutions.

Sending you hugs, my friend. My heart is with you/

Gentle hug of comfort for you and a blessing... You're in my thoughts and prayers...xo

Aw, thanks so much lovesmama, for those words of kindness, and SunCloud for your thoughts and prayers that strengthen me. I'm spending a day shut in because I have to gather samples for kidney tests tomorrow, so it's nice to have your comments on my computer.

Crazy Canuck, my fingers and toes are crossed for your biopsy results. Thanks for your solidarity as you yourself go through this similar thing in your own life. Much support back to you, too!

I'm so sorry Muji! I'm praying for you and your body!

One day at a time helps. Plus, if you can put any positive spin on it, it may help. When I had to go in for a root canal and was terrified to the point of tears, I thought about how I was glad to have a great endontist, good insurance, etc. Having a friend go helps too - particularly if they know what you want and can advocate for you.

Remember that you get to say "yes" or "no" to anything and that Western medicine isn't your only alternative. There are other treatments that may not be as invasive.

Thanks, purple, for thinking of me on your birthday. Yeah, reed, I don't like getting deep into specialists in Western medicine because it seems the further you go into their specialty the less holistic they are.