My psychiatrist today saw me when i had just seen him last weds because my depression is getting worse every day and my anxiety and my nightmares of dad dying. He said he will up the prazosin faster i start up to 2 pills tonight then in 5 days 3pills and 5 days later 4 pills they are 2 mg. He is also putting my vraylar up to 4.5 mg i been on 3 mg for about 2 years. I also take remeron 45mg, trintellix 20mg, klonopin 1 mg ODT at bedtime and rozerem 8mg at bedtime. He said if this does not work when i see him in 4 weeks he will get me admitted for 1 to 2 weeks to get me on new meds, he thinks its risky to without doing that because of my diabetes being unstable right now and i have blood pressure and tachycardia issues. We been lowering some of my meds because my blood pressure and pulse were going too low. I do not want to be admitted again i was 4 1/2 years ago for 2 weeks then for 3 days 2 months later. I do not want to ever be again. He wants me to see if i can see my new thearpist i start with monday, twice a week, my peer support twice a week and my case manager weekly. My depression and anxiety are so bad right now. but i am NOT suicidal. I DO get urges to cut but will not act on it i promised dad on his death bed i never would again. i do not so far have any urges to drink but am going to at least one AA meeting in person a week and doing AA daily online even if its just the chat room. I am so stressed out right now and we just went thru dads clothes yesterday and today and some of his other things for the rummage sale this weekend. My dad passed November 3rd. I never got to hug him good bye only got to see him on i pad.