Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Support Group
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So I was in alot of spiritual bondage a few years ago and it seems like the whole world just ignored, didn't care, or didn't understand! I could have lost my mind and gotten worse but Jesus worked it out and now I am free and strong. Alleluia in Jesus name! I look back though and think, 'Woah I am still sad because of how bad it really was' I mean it was very bad.... So I doubt if it all had purpose or did I just survive. I also feel like, 'was there purpose?' or did I just 'fall on my face and it was my fault why should anyone care?' Even now I look back and see that I sacrificed so much just to get back normal that my life looks like a haze of smoke now.... Will I truly recover? I feel like a different person, was I meant to change, was I meant to be this scared guy now?
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
When I was fully entrapped in the family/social dysfunction, I couldn't afford to feel my fears. Life was entirely too hazardous to allow such luxuries as emotions that did not contribute to raw survival. Showing fear, in particular, only invited further abuse. When my personal esteem, etc., began to heal far enough to allow the luxury of the full emotional spectrum, I found myself needing to develop coping mechanisms for many of those, including fear and happiness.
Healing is a process, not a destination. Be patient with the process, Biru. You are not alone.
I can tell by your post that you have come a long way, and praise God for your recovery. It sounds like you put on the armor of God to help you through it, and the spiritual warfare and bondage; you were released! That alone provides a purpose. To be able to look back and be thankful for God for bringing you through is a true praise.
Life is full of sacrifices and blessings, and just the fact that you realize all that and can share it here is a great testimony. Keep up your faith in Jesus and He will guide you all the way!
“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Philippians 4:13
I will be praying for you!