In my personal madness, it is not normal to be able to ignore it. I feel like pretending we can ignore it is THE reason our Toxic People landfills are overwhelming our Peaks of Perfection, especially when I believe in the inner child theories.

Soothing tail wags, blue. You are not alone.

Easy as it goes, BD.

I freak out if it's a certain kind of crying. A little squall from "Hey, change me, feed me, I need nap time" is okay, but when it hits that point where the child is.... yeah, I get sick to my stomach and have to block it out or forget how to breathe. Baby cries are designed to make us react, but yeah, I can freak out.

Gentle purrs.

Not one of my own triggers, specifically, but I have others that are similar, so I certainly get it.

Me too...flashbacks, shaking....even if I hear an animal outside ...like baby squirrels..it can sound like a baby crying...I want to climb a tree....I don't have a specific memory attached....just a bad body feeling...you are not alone!

My niece and nephew, twins, were born 2 months prematurely-had to be taken out in an emergency c-section, we almost lost my nephew.

They were in an ICU for a month. Even though my brother and his wife went down there religiously and held the kids every night ( my brother actually cut a giant scoop out of an old t-shirt so he could hold the babies skin-to-skin ) they are EXCEEDINGLY fussy and have a horrible time sleeping.
They seem to have settled a bit now, after a year, but it was news when the little girl first slept through the entire night...really...after about six months.

Those kids go off like twin air-raid sirens around bedtime, and OMGOMGOMG...it's both horrible and darkly funny that I had to go hide in another room because I was shaking when I was over?
I thought everyone had that level of physiological reaction, because it's designed to get your attention. But I asked my guy-who has nursemaided infants on occasion ( food in one end, poop out the other, pretty simple, he says) if he reacts like that? Nope.

Keep in mind his PTSD symptoms are usually worse than mine-he's far more on the hyperalert/flashback side of things, while I'm on the dissociative space-cadet end?
So that's REALLY weird to my way of thinking. I see an incongruity there. When there's an incongruity, often there's a buried memory...
:/.
It's better to find those land mines on purpose than to set them off by accident...as witness the last couple of weeks and the near-loss of my fiance...

You can't compare your reactions to someone who does it professionally so go easy on yourself. two screaming twins? I think anybody would want to run away except their parents and maybe even them sometimes too.

Screaming babies make me very nervous and white knuckled. My mind goes blank as to what to even attempt to soothe a crying baby. You are not alone or abnormal. There are those of us who realize this and figure having babies of our own and babysitting are things we should never do. Take it easy on yourself. With twins I'm sure mom and dad have felt at their witts end too.