this year hasn't been too bad. i have finally started hanging out w/friends again, i am doing well at work, and i am succeeding in school. on new years eve, i "put out into the universe", i am ready for a boyfriend and to date. then, who do i see on facebook, but an ex. he has a history of alcohol abuse, manic depression, and is completely emtionally unavailable. i am searching for the answer as to why the universe put him back in my life.
with PTSD, i still get those aweful flashbacks of situations that made me uncomfortable. i literally cringe when i get these flashbacks. i thought i was supposed to forgive the people i had these interactions with. but am i supposed to be forgiving myself? allowing myself to make mistakes? god for bid i don't do everything perfectly !!!!!
are these flashbacks about me or the person i had the interaction with?
Im always worried about something and thats why when i get home i use the smartphone for 90% of the time and surf the web or watch any youtube videos. Occasionally i read a classic novel... and my hobby has always been playing video games but i can't do that right now. So i always listen to music and use the smartphone. I feel always tired even though i sleep enough.And when i have to be in one...
Weekend Fun Questions? What is your favorite type of Flower? If you like to Garden, what is your Favorite thing to plant? What do you like most about Flowers? If you don't like anything about Flowers or Gardens, what do you like outside?