this year hasn't been too bad. i have finally started hanging out w/friends again, i am doing well at work, and i am succeeding in school. on new years eve, i "put out into the universe", i am ready for a boyfriend and to date. then, who do i see on facebook, but an ex. he has a history of alcohol abuse, manic depression, and is completely emtionally unavailable. i am searching for the answer as to why the universe put him back in my life.
with PTSD, i still get those aweful flashbacks of situations that made me uncomfortable. i literally cringe when i get these flashbacks. i thought i was supposed to forgive the people i had these interactions with. but am i supposed to be forgiving myself? allowing myself to make mistakes? god for bid i don't do everything perfectly !!!!!
are these flashbacks about me or the person i had the interaction with?
i found out recently that my father touched my cousin 30 years ago when she was only 5. My question is is it wrong of me to still want a relationship with my father after hearing he did that? what would you do? i know its the past, and i also dont condone what he may have done. it makes me so sick to my stomach. thank you
last nights lesson at group was AdmitI have trouble finding people I trust. In my experience people aren’t who they say they are. I give chances and I don’t see the obvious flags. I need to figure this out. I can’t deal with my head. I’ve been home all week because of daycare issues and now they’re with dad and I want to hide in my bed and not come out all day. I have not felt this...