I've been done like that before, too, Strength, for real. That's why I'm here, it might happen again. When it happened to me before, friends were so worried about me that they had the police come to my house to have me taken to the psych ward at my local hospital. It didn't solve everything, I still lost my job, my house, my wife left me, and I went bankrupt. I was really done, as you are now.

But it did keep me alive, and that mattered so I could slowly, very slowly, build back a life. After the psych ward and bankruptcy with no job, as a 42 year old I had to move back in with my elderly parents, get a job near them, and start over.

Starting over meant a whole new career, and since PTSD is what I knew, I did training and got a job as a trauma chaplain in a big city ER, and then at another one.

10 years later, I was back in the hospital myself again, though this time not in the psych ward. I never quit anything, either, but I had to quit my other career again not because of PTSD but CKD, chronic kidney disease. It put me on crutches, then a cane. I had to take a job that paid less.

Last year I had a problem doing the job that pays less. I don't quit stuff, but it quits on me sometimes. As I wrote here today in my own crisis thread I started, I collapsed on the job last summer and ended up in the hospital for 4 days again. I've been really worried about that now for the last 3 days. This afternoon, I think the crisis was averted.

But you never know, at least that's been my experience. So if you're done, going to the hospital like my friends helped me to do worked for me. Going yourself will beat what they did for me, which was get to police to show up at my house to take me. Having them at my door scared the heck out of me.

I don't have any pearls of wisdom or magic advice, just what we've got here--peer support because being a peer means I've been there, and might be there again. Hang in there for yourself, and hang in there for others like me who'll probably need your support, too, down the line. Thinking of you!

Strength, you can decide not to quit on yourself. Many of us have been in that pit where we have nothing but to choose a new path and slowly rebuild a shattered life. I have had decades of therapy of many kinds. DBT is a variation of older therapies. Works for some, not for all. Since you are still posting, I have to believe that you have not given up on everyone and everything. That fighter in you is still there. We are here for you. Even though you cannot believe in yourself, we do. We cannot walk for you, but we can walk beside you. Comforting and healing hugs.

Never give up! Believe that darkness comes before the dawn. When it comes to "hitting bottom" I have hit bottom many, many times- and I dragged bottom for 5 years before finally emerging into the wonderful life I am experiencing now. So don't lose hope! Be brave! It helps if you trust in "the God of your own understanding"- not necessarily the one you were trained to believe in, but the One you feel in your own heart. But if not, then just know that there is in nature a time of darkness and a time of enlightenment. Keep the Faith in the goodness of life, the goodness of those who care for you- as all of us here do. Love, love, love to you!

Sometimes when we are in that pit of despair, we feel that there is nothing that can help us. I was that way too just yesterday. But I didn't like feeling that way so I did something about it and now I feel better. Give yourself some time to grieve whatever is causing you the most turmoil. And then just do the best you can and do what is the most effective thing that you can do. Since you mentioned that you know your DBT skills I know you understand that. And recognize that sometimes we have to radically accept that there are going to be people who disappoint us and result in us feeling like we are defective and that nothing can ever get better. And then something miraculous happens and we all get better and feel better. So just hang in there keep posting your feelings keep venting keep trying. There's going to be a psychiatrist somewhere who will take you you just have to keep searching. I don't know how spiritual you are, but Jesus himself said if you keep on asking, keep on searching, and keep on knocking , you will find what you are looking for. The key word being keep. That indicates continued action. I know it's difficult and I'm so sorry that you're going through this Troublesome time. I have faith in you though. If you've done it before you can do it again. there's proof in that. Sending you hugs and prayers.

It's been a week, strength. Thinking of you...

It's been a week, strength. Thinking of you...

Feeling worse. Nothing I try seems to help. I need the warmth of human touch and it's just not there. Therapist still out of the office taking care of his partner, Vertigo and headaches are unbearable. Physically and emotionally suffering.

Can't give you a real human touch but here's a virtual hug.

I have been there. Decided life is not worth it. Have given up. Several times I decided 'no more, I can't take any more'. But the next day comes and I find I still see a little light, I still feel a little hope....that things will change and if I end it now, I will not be around to finally be here to experience it. If I had just waited one more day......so don't give up on hope. Don't end it and miss a chance because you gave up the day before you were going to have a chance at living again.

Gentle hug of support and a blessing..... We're thinking of you sweetie.....xo

I have to echo the never give up sentiments. You are the only one that can fix you. To have got this far you have to have real strength. These can be trying times...but you are worth it.

There are two videos I have seen recently I think you might like https://youtu.be/rPzPFXxP2xM and https://youtu.be/qqv6XW7omX8

they are from a session with a lady who has cptsd and the method used likes quite amazing...certainly, the results do.

I feel you right now. I'm so sorry everything seems so hopeless..

Ouch, vertigo and headaches along with the emotional despair, strength? Sending you lots more support, lots more, oodles more. We're here for you.

Suffering is unbearable.

When it's that bad for me, strength, it goes from one day at a time down to one hour at a time down to one minute at a time to one moment at a time. I don't know any other way I've gotten by bad times like these.

Just the present moment is so much to bear, there's no way to think about how much time has passed like that nor to dread how much longer. Just what's on the plate in this one moment is all there is for me in times like these. I can't tell you how or why it worked, it just did. We're with you moment by moment. You're not alone.