Hi.

OK.

You do need to stay as calm as possible, at least until you find a safe place to be a wreck. Got it?

first of all, by the tone of your post, you're still considered "a kid". That is why many will assume it's hormones/your age/ blah blah blah.

No. You legit can have post-trauma stress if you've had trauma.

And what is trauma to one isn't universally traumatic to all people.

Example: Someone stands between me and the door to a room.

To me, that's a blocked exit, I'm trapped, and I start to "slip" ---- even when it's my husband doing it, and we're together 30 years now. (Oh wow. Almost 31.)

To others, it's just someone else in the room.

To me, it's a trigger. Not a "snowflake buttercup" way, but a genuine, "I have no escape, panic in three-two-one" reaction. (TLDR version: First 17 years of life bad, then bad atop that later, and here I am.)

A fall off a bunkbed might be no big deal to someone, but to someone 8else*, it's terrifying, and gives them a long-lasting fear of heights.

So don't judge your reaction by what others think they'd react like.

Second, a LOT can be happening, and you need a qualified doctor's help. Yes, a therapist and/or psychiatrist. Scary, yes? Well, the question I had to ask after resisting therapy for 43 years of my life was: Is it scarier than the stuff in my head? Answer: No.

But it may help more than you can imagine, and coping mechanisms are part of therapy. Some are ismple breathing techniques, some are carrying a scented bit of something to help re-align you in your here-now, all sorts of ideas.

Many you can find out here, from us. We're a diverse group.

Please, seek professional help. If your family isn't open to it, there may be a school counselor or social services program or similar. Peer support groups, too. I owe my sanity to one of them in my early life, and to DS PTSD *now*.

GEntle gentle gentle puma purrs to you. Yu've already recognized the problems. Solving them... that's complicated stuff, and the longer we wait, the worse it can be. Think of it like a broken arm. Waiting to fix it only makes it harder to fix.

Share what you can here, as you wish, or don't. Healing hopes to you.

Welcome to the board Mayley ... This is a good place to come.... Are you able to get into some therapy for trauma sweetie?

I think that Leo has given you some good advice.... Gentle hug.....xo

Hi Mayley, welcome to the group. So sorry to hear you're having such a difficult time right now. Leo is right, a psychologist or counselor can help you navigate your situation and learn skills to manage your thoughts.

Best wishes on your journey.

Thank you so much for this detailed reply. I was in trouble of making the right decision independently, and thank you for your great responses. Yesterday I shared my problem with my Mom. I thought my mother is very rude and she will scold me if I open my mind to her. But her surprising behavior made me more confident and comfortable. She advised me not to carry the problem alone. We together took up the decision of attending counselling and found some nearest therapists [ https://www.cognitivebehaviourtherapytoronto.com/areas-of-specialty/post-traumatic-stress-disorder ]. I'm going to meet my therapist next week. Hope he will guide me to overcome my issues. Once again, I thank you all for giving me your valuable time.

Oh Maylet I remembered my days and don't know which was worst been ignored or been bullied. It's not easy and I know that you are doing your best and that's why I am so proud of you.

Do you have a Counselor or therapist to talk to? I am so glad that you post. Keep coming back