Rocking you gently and crying with you, Novy. Are there loved ones with more access to our sorest spots than our kids?

Healing hopes for both of you.

I'm hopeful that it will get better

Triple hugs novy that’s a tough one

Without a doubt my favorite stage of kids growing up is when they were 3 and brought tissues to anyone that appeared as though they were crying.

Least favorite..is when they are pushing, repeating it a hundred times, and jumping up and down on my triggers.

My kids are 16 and 18, and they're still in the process of learning that I'm still just a person too.

That is so hard. I went through that too and unfortunately we never found our way back. I hope for so much more for you. Can you ask him what's worrying him? Often anger comes from trauma or worry.

I try to talk with him we will see how it goes

What's he doing or saying?

Big squishy hug.....xo

Yes, sending you support. Can you say more about his comments?

Hugs

Supportive hugs.

It's just I cant talk fast and I lose track of what I'm saying and then I'm the one that gets confused like an idiot and then I just get mad and start raging and all hell breaks lose.

Is it perhaps, that at the age of 11, he just doesn't know how to respond to that?

Around 11-14...kids start looking grown up. It's hard to remember just how very young they still are.

I once asked my son to go down to the garage to check how much gas we had for the mower. He asked what he could pour the gas into! Sigh. He had "seen" me pick up the can hundreds of times...but it never occurred to him that he could just check the gas that way.

Not sure. It's all a blur and really confusing to me and I don't think I could even understand anymore. My mental health issues is taking me down and my wife and my dad want me to go to the hospital to be admitted. I've been pretty bad and the other day I was suicidal and decided to stand on the train tracks but no train came. With this I completely understand why they want me to go but I I'm scared for the length of time I would be in.

Standing on the train tracks is going to be rough on your son.

When I was in high school my father tried to take his life and went into the hospital for a bit. It was rough.

But it wouldn't have been rougher to have lost him.

Don't let your son's awkwardness of dealing with your issues fool you into thinking that he doesn't care.