Yesterday I had the luxury of a lot of time to read posts on here.........for the first time in my life I didn't feel like I was a weirdo......when I introduced myself I told you about what my dd's biological father had been doing to her, that's the worst because it's not me taking the pain....it's my kid....but my previous experiences have been signifcant as well......there isn't much that hasn't effected my family.....domestic violence, suicide by hanging, even torture and murder.........sometimes I haven't recovered from one load of trauma before the next one hits......but how do you tell 'normal' people that.....I worry that it ends up sounding like fantasy......surely no-one has a life like that !!!!!   But we do.....and you guys are giving me the strength to stop covering up the events that have created the person I am....thank you