Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Support Group
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Hello DS members, you r dearly missed in particular, the PTSD group. Writing in this section due to the difficulty reading n writing of my broken screen. I have been miserably worn out
I don't know if anyone can truly relate to this matter. For those who have followed my story n have read my posts, you know my background history.
Since many changeshave occurred in my life, the difficult change I have is the dynamics of home. I've grown apart from my family, assertive n strong. But the backlash of that is the shame n hurt I receive from those closest to me. It is very difficult to wake up in the morning, when the place where most of my trauma occurred is staring at me everyday. Suicidal thoughts leave my mind restless n spinning, it is very difficult to live like this. I am doing the best that I can with what I got and am doing the things that are necessary do me to move forward, but I a undoubtedly in a difficult position n I feel like I've come to hit a wall.
A couple of weeks ago, there was an event called Out of the Darkness walk for the AFSP. Attending the event made me confront the death of my cousin's suicide. Two years have passed n it's only until then I've come to the consensus that he is actually gone. Very surreal but beautiful. This was n is just one of the many traumatic events that occurred that left me with many questions n no answers.
If only these events did not happen, I don't believe I would have had the courage to speak for myself n bring light to the darkness that I've lived in for so long. I am truly thankful for God's help n guidance from others, but I know that this is just the beginning of all that is to come n see.
Forgive me if I have been so caught up in many events. There is no need for excuses on this forum but I think I need your guys help n prayers. I am trying to think what is the best option or direction for me to take, but I seriously want to punch all the things that surround me until I have no strength left in every fiber of my being.
All at once yet entangled in many of the family affairs. God please, give me some space to breathe.
Prayer: Psalm 38.
I don't know if anyone can truly relate to this matter. For those who have followed my story n have read my posts, you know my background history.
Since many changeshave occurred in my life, the difficult change I have is the dynamics of home. I've grown apart from my family, assertive n strong. But the backlash of that is the shame n hurt I receive from those closest to me. It is very difficult to wake up in the morning, when the place where most of my trauma occurred is staring at me everyday. Suicidal thoughts leave my mind restless n spinning, it is very difficult to live like this. I am doing the best that I can with what I got and am doing the things that are necessary do me to move forward, but I a undoubtedly in a difficult position n I feel like I've come to hit a wall.
A couple of weeks ago, there was an event called Out of the Darkness walk for the AFSP. Attending the event made me confront the death of my cousin's suicide. Two years have passed n it's only until then I've come to the consensus that he is actually gone. Very surreal but beautiful. This was n is just one of the many traumatic events that occurred that left me with many questions n no answers.
If only these events did not happen, I don't believe I would have had the courage to speak for myself n bring light to the darkness that I've lived in for so long. I am truly thankful for God's help n guidance from others, but I know that this is just the beginning of all that is to come n see.
Forgive me if I have been so caught up in many events. There is no need for excuses on this forum but I think I need your guys help n prayers. I am trying to think what is the best option or direction for me to take, but I seriously want to punch all the things that surround me until I have no strength left in every fiber of my being.
All at once yet entangled in many of the family affairs. God please, give me some space to breathe.
Prayer: Psalm 38.
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I haven't written in my diary on my computer since May because I thought that my computer was dying. I got away from writing but my computer is hanging in there. I think that I will start writing in it again. It's so therapeutic.
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First, I hope everyone is doing well, and continuing to fight that good fight! Keep up the great work on yourselves; I'm rooting for all of you!So, I started doing therapy at the beginning of the year, when I was in my most depressed state, but with my therapist, I made big changes and steps in the right direction. But, over a month ago, she couldn't take my insurance anymore, and I had to stop...
I remember you well, but it sure is easy to get threads tangled in my support groups. Refreshers can be helpful. So many stories and so little memory function...
Prayers in progress, Kat. May God grant you that space to breathe soon.