Welcome to the board Myth.... I am so very sorry to read this happened to you..... It will take time

Sometimes baby steps are the best and only way to go.... One day, one hour, one moment at a time

If you can get into some therapy for trauma it can help a lot

This is a good place to come... I'm glad that you've found us

Big hug of peace and calm.....xo

First, I have literally been where you were/are. Mine? Dad. (No facing anything for him. It's a long time ago.) I was 17. I'm getting silver-haired these days.

How do you let go? I'm sorry, it's a cliche, but... THerapy. The sooner you go after a trauma, the better the results for you long-term. For me? I didn't have the option. I went with some things, but it wasn't specific to the traumas... Long story short? ...

The main thing here? Stay safe. Be safe. And here, you ARE safe. We're all here b/c we've had rotten things happen and it's left scars on us in many ways.

So... vent. Cry. Write. Find a reliable therapist for post-trauma treatment (some treatments, like EMDR, are most effective if done as soon as possible after the traumatic event).

Peace.
Healing hopes to you.

!!!! So sorry for what you've been through. I almost have no words. I haven't exactly been there, but think with a couple of people I narrowly avoided something violent.

As hard as it may be to get started trauma therapy can help.

Stay strong and don't give in. Him being in jail is the right thing. Court may be hard, but you can do it.

Sending lots of hugs and support your way. Wishing you some moments of peace.

My dad did this weekly, too, like Leo's. I found that the sooner trauma therapy started the less of a chance it had to harden inside a person's head permanently. Also, in my experience getting a therapist who is a PTSD specialist matters, not all of them are.

Thank you all. I did have my first session with abuse counselor. Might be why I was up or am up almost all night. I can't stop thinking about it no matter what I do. But I appreciate the comments. xo