Steadying support while you sort it out, MJ. That's allot to sort. Sort freely. Sort often.

You are not alone.

Big hug for you and a blessing..... I am so sorry to read about your Grandpa.... I agree that there's a lot that's very emotional..... Deep breaths ......xo

I am so sorry for what you have been through. Hugs

All kinds of triggers coming at you at onetime, vent freely and gently to yourself most of all. You’re worth more than you know.

I can’t even work, guys. Super depressed and can’t stop letting my ex around.

i don't want to freak you out or anything, but you may have ptsd.

so very sorry for your loss - the most gentle of hugs xo

i hope you can surround yourself with as much positive comforting support as possible.

it makes sense that falling back is instinctive and instinctive is what happens when your legs get pulled out from under you. especially when your heart gets broken at the same time.

all while you had agreed w/yourself to become vulnerable and attempt to help yourself get more well - so, you are extra fragile and vulnerable when this happened, ((((Mj))))

it is possible that you may be unconsiciously punishing yourself somehow by allowing your ex in.

someone told me one time that a knock on the door is an invitation, and invitations don't require a response. especially the kind that happen at the door.

you may give yourself permission to have an appointment w/yourself at that moment in time. be unavailable maybe?

give yourself kindness and space in which to grieve. all said wrapped in hugs and zero judgement - i have no idea what i would do or how i might handle any of this.

it is good you came here- thank you for doing that. thank you for giving me the chance to try to share comfort like i was comforted when i needed it xo

I’m so sorry what you’re going through, I’m sorry for your pain. Please just don’t forget how special you are Mj.
Gentlest of hugs

I'm sorry that you are experiencing continuation of your pain. It is so hard. I agree with the possibility that guilt is sabotaging you success to move beyond it.

Music helps me so much. I listen to a lot of self empowering stuff. i think, like subliminal suggestion, seeping into my brain if I listen to enough of it.

for combating the ex situation. I highly recommend listening to Dua Lipa, especially her NEW RULES.

wrapping you hugs, hang in there.

I love you all. I wish I could say more.

ditto

You have a lot on your plate right now. Sorry to hear about your grandfather passing away. Losses are difficult and you have to give yourself a chance to grieve. I agree that girlfriends are really important to share your thoughts and emotions with. They are a safe support system.