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It's not a switch

Michael.m
Michael.m

It's not a switch I can just turn off, the voice inside screams my name as I try to ignore, shall I just listen and let it take over. The darkness that resides inside isn't a switch, it's a beast, beckoning me to let it free, alone I stand with the beast the only thing that seems to be right, with no switch in sight shall ignore it until it bursts out again, only to use the last bit of sanity to trap it again. This isn't a switch I can just turn off. Not while it screams so loudly, the only thing that's right is the voice, shall I be friends with the voice that speaks so much truth or shall I once pretend to turn the switch off until the voice burns its way through. It's not a switch I can turn off much more.

run2bfree
run2bfree
Yeah were is that switch, wouldn't that be nice or a pill? I have thought about that too. I was at counselling today and my therapist gave me an "ah-ha" moment so I was pleased with that. It is a process is all I can say, hang in there. I am never able to stop the flashbacks, they just come unannounced.
nancy6464
nancy6464
Hi Michael. Is this an actual voice or are you being metaphorical. I know you have been grieving the greatest loss, your love. I just lost my wife in September, so while I don't know how you feel , I do know a feeling similar. triple hugs
it is not easy for us to go forward with out them. (((michael)))
arfie
arfie
Nope, regrettably, it is not a switch. If somebody could invent a switch, they'd make billions and I wouldn't begrudge them a single penny.

Damn!!!
Michael.m
Michael.m
To let everyone know, no it's not an actual voice it's more less just a small wisper but it's built off a metaphor
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