im not a virgin anymore... by choice? no. I told him no and he did it anyway, as if i was an object he could do whatevery he wanted with. i think about it everyday and regret and hatred floods through me with every thought that creeps into my brain. why would he do it? he said he thought i was lying. he thought i wasnt a virgin but even if i wasn't, it is still my body and i told him no. he did not pin me down nore grab my kneck but he did take the one thing that was left sacred to me. he wasnt like the other. he grabbed my kneck. he keft bruises where people can see, but atleast he didnt do it. he only threatened. he didnt either believe i was a virgin. is it so hard to believe i value my first time having sex with someone? well not anymore... now i just remember that first time. i lost my virginity on a couch... one of the things i said i was never going to do. and i dont even have anyone to talk to about it... help, i feel like im drowning