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I've been more triggered lately (RANT)

WNB125
WNB125

Well many things happened in the last 4 to 5 years. Only a couple of them gave me PTSD but those couple things have been causing me problems lately. I was sexually,physically, and mentally abused for 4 years by my ex. During that time my grandpa (who i was very close with) was diagnosed with 6 different types of cancer but suddenly died of a heart attack. So i've been in the recovering process for at least a year now. So it's the usual stuff i've had to deal with before except i'm having trouble sleeping at night again and i'm having problems going to my dads house. My dad and his girlfriend are not the problem it's the house. My grandpa died in October 2012 and he was my dad's father. I lived with my dad off and on when i was in that nightmare of a so called "relationship" and during this whole thing with my grandpa so it could be that causing me anxiety. It's just very hard for me to desensitize because when my anxiety acts up my body gets tense and that causes my fibromyalgia to hurt even worse. I know recovery is hard but it's even harder when it keeps you away from your family who you love with all your heart. 

Community LeaderLeo
Leo
I can't even figure out how to look at a photo of the house I grew up in, and I haven't lived in it on a daily basis since 1988. I get the idea of the house bringing up that horrible "stuff". And I also get flares in my fibro from tension from PTSD. It *sucks*. I can't bring myself to face that house and its memories. (And my memories.) My sense of the house being so tightly associated with the negative? Yeah. Still huge. Desensitizing has not even started yet for me. So give yourself a break, okay? It' sound very typical/normal to me. I loved my grandma, but her house was not great for me for a while after she died, just b/c I missed seeing her in it so much.

Hugs of support.
Doo
Doo
Wow, that is a lot of stuff you are having to deal with all. Welcome to the group, much support here.
Rizen
Rizen
You get triggered by the house and its memories. Losing people is always hard. I hope you get some relief.
arfie
arfie
Welcome to the forum, WNB. Yes, recovery is hard, but it is a whole lot easier with a peer support network. I hope you will feel safe sorting through all those difficulties here.

Welcome aboard.
Pag.mars
Pag.mars
Mmm yeah I can see how the place would be triggering for you. There's just no way to explain that to others, including family, sometimes. I think maybe inviting your dad and his girlfriend to wherever you live, or maybe to go out rather than be in their house would be a good thing to think about. Especially if you aren't planning to tell them about this anytime soon. If you really truly want to be extremely open with them, you could bring up the issue, but again, it's completely up to you. 100%.
Welcome to the group. We're definitely here for ya if you need it. *huggggs*
Zoe
Zoe
Welcome to the group. Sounds like you're going through a lot. It takes time. Much support and hugs.
WNB125
WNB125
Leo i really hope one day you are able to deal with your memories and be able to recover. Thank u for ur support. *hugs back* i was able to go to my dads today after i explained to him on the phone yeterday what i was thinking and that helped me feel more calm and safer. :) it really does take time. I took sometime to remember what i did when i did the same thing at my moms. So that helped too :)
WNB125
WNB125
Doo thank you for the support and yea it is a lot. Some days are harder than others but today is a pretty good day for me i really hope u had a good day or night and remember you have my support
WNB125
WNB125
Rizen thank you that helped me to know that and thank you for the support i did get some relief today i got to spend time at my dads without feeling so anxious. I noticed if i plan to go to his house in advance that helps :)
WNB125
WNB125
Arfie thank you i really feel welcomed and safe here. I sometimes feel like im being annoying (i always feel like that) but no one has been mean to me so i love it here :)
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Glad you love it here, WNB, I do, too. Sorry that bad stuff brought you to us, but it's good you joined us like you have!
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