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I'm so tired...

EMC2
EMC2

I had a therapist appointment Wednesday morning. It was already a tough week to begin with, but since,  I've had trouble with panic attacks, I've even had them in my sleep... what little sleep I've had... I must started to post this a half dozen times but, every time I started to... I'd panic again and had to abort... I fell last week and hurt. my hip and Wed was the first visit to the office since the fall. People were getting to close, I was freaking out more than usual. They were trying to get me to go to the  ER but I wouldn't... I was getting overwhelmed I started to panic... 


Doctors that I don't know... and the topic of discussion,  the whole day was almost more than I could take. 


I was wrongfully arrested last year for DUI that I didn't do, while I was there I was assaulted and injured several times by both inmates and guards. I am physically disabled and can't walk without full leg braces and crutches, a walker, or a wheelchair. My disability is due to abuse/ violence...When people were getting too close, it triggered me...


Now every time I close my eyes ... or get to sleep for any length of time I've had trouble and I can't seem to shake it. 


arfie
arfie
Breathing with you, EM. . . It be a tough cycle to break.

On my own really tough days, I take the time to celebrate simply surviving. There are days where simply breathing at the end of the day is a great triumph. Taking the time to celebrate the fact that I did survive is a positive affirmation which reminds me to be gentle with myself and patient with the process.
didleedoo
didleedoo
Very well said Arfie——reminding us to be both gentle and patient with ourselves❤️
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
I'm like arfie, EMC2, which I've probably told you--I have days when I neither live nor do I die, I just go for the third option and I just "exist and celebrate doing that much. Others may not understand celebrating anything so small, but folks here do. I'm like you, a survivor of lots of violence so I walk on a cane now. I went from a walker to a cane, so that's improvement I celebrate, too, though a lot of folks out there wouldn't get that, either. I really hope this period of panic attacks in your sleep will pass soon so you can get some decent rest. Sleep is the foundation of my PTSD recovery. Sending you support for tonight.
EMC2
EMC2
I can see what you're saying, and I appreciate your encouragment my friends. I will try my best as I always do... I'm praying for rest, I feel like I'll think more clearly and feel better altogether...
Thank you for your support.
Secouya
Secouya
EMC2, sending you strength and support. I am sorry for your suffering and pain. I will say a prayer for you. Hang in there..
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Yeah, hang in there, EMC2, sending you daily support again today.
EMC2
EMC2
Thank you for your continued support... it really means a lot! :)
Tropicaloo
Tropicaloo
Yeah hang in there hon. We’re here with you and understand. The world can be a cruel place sometimes.
EMC2
EMC2
it's really hard but I'm trying
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Gentle hug of support.... I'm glad that you're here venting.... xo
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Tired as heck today after doing a guest speaker gig for a church from here in Mexico to the US via Zoom. It cut out on me twice. How're you today, EMC2?
EMC2
EMC2
I'm still hanging in there. Its hard because I don't have support at home. In fact it's just the opposite. I'm very tired, I haven't been sleeping much... but I'm trying...
Spiral
Spiral
Wow, sounds like a very triggering time. What are you doing for you right now? You need some self-compassion time. Do what you enjoy? Do what you need to do to make yourself feel better. You have been threw a lot.
lilmissy7
lilmissy7
You have my empathy, I have been through a lot of violence & have permanent injuries from it .... & well I just really get it , you’re not alone.

I like what everyone write above, also the post above mine about the self compassion.

Sending you lots of support
Big hug <3
EMC2
EMC2
Thank you for your support... It really means a lot! I never guessed that there would ever be this much support out there... As you might've guessed it's really hard for me to talk to anyone... having said that, I'm trying me best to overcome and share no matter how scary
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