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I HATE IT!

bluedragon41
bluedragon41
...why can't I just be ok?
..or dying?

I'd take either, but no okayness, no terminal illness, just more and more horrible episodes of " Guess what happened to YOU!"

Why didn't he just kill me outright?
Dad wanted to.
He hated me for being alive, being female, for needing any effort on his part.
Why did he stay and take it out on me?

I've got to go be responsible. I suck. I hate my life.
bluedragon41
bluedragon41
It's too late to go get the fucking insurance today.
Will have to anticipate leaving way, way early for work tomorrow.
I suck a giant hemorrhoid.
DavidNRockies
DavidNRockies
May all of your tomorrows be better than any of your yesterdays.

Sending a hug your way......
LeoX3
LeoX3
Ditto David's reply and then some....

Purrz, soft puma power to you
LoveAlice
LoveAlice
I wish I could repeatedly torture your father myself.
bluedragon41
bluedragon41
@ Alice...us first...though the people who tried to kill him did a pretty good job already.

We forgot we posted this.
We are scrambled.
We are doing badly.
We put coffee grounds in the coffeemaker reservoir, so it's probably good we din't try to drive in Houston traffic. We have steel plate in our arm from trying to drive while remembering stuff...not a good idea.
LoveAlice
LoveAlice
Oh geez I am so so sorry you aren't doing well. Yes it is a good idea you decided not to drive! I have also decided not to drive while remembering stuff.. it never goes well!

What do you mean the ppl who tried to kill him? If you do not mind me asking..
bluedragon41
bluedragon41
Oh, he kinda got...stabbed 16 times.
Much to the ICU doc's surprise, he lived. Was in the ICU for a month though.
He was working as a cabbie in New Orleans, so it wasn't a safe environment...but...
Karma, sometimes it actually works?

...I wasn't as angry at him after that, I felt like it had kinda been taken care of.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Huge hug for you sista...xoxo
arfie
arfie
Gravity is a science myth. There is no gravity. The world just sucks...

Feel better, blue. Be gentle with yourself.
bluedragon41
bluedragon41
Arf, you're awesome!
drangonflylady
drangonflylady
Sorry you are feeling bad blue. It's a lot to handle sometimes. Just be good to yourself an know a lot of people here really love and respect you. Hugs
min63
min63
sometimes i think this is our hell hugs min
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