Oh limssy....I understand,I truly do.And I think you know that I do,my friend.

And I want you to know that as my dear friend you are a light for me...

oh lilmissy i’m so sorry your feeling so hopeless. you are such a light in this world dear i wish you could see your own light xxx i will keep reminding you whenever you need it <3 deep, deep breaths

Have you done your gratitude exercises? Hope can grow in the damndest places if ya take the time to look.

1) I am grateful for the Spring sun shining through my window.
2) I am grateful to have a window for it to shine through.
3) I am grateful for the fellowship here in this forum.

Spportive purrs.

lilmiss, I don't get "hope", I really don't. I mean there's that expression "hope against hope." What is THAT? I don't hear people say "faith against faith" or "love against love."

I don't keep on keeping in this life with PTSD every day because of hope, to be honest. I keep my expectations on the same level with how much I can function or not with my PTSD on any given day. This "hope" stuff I don't understand leads me to unrealistic expectations, like being "normal." I'll never be normal in a world that was so abnormal it brought me those traumatic experiences I never sought to have. That I function as I can after those abnormal crazy traumas from this crazy world is a private, personal miracle others without PTSD don't often understand.

I get you about feeling hopeless, lilmiss. And I just keep on hopelessly, because it seems to be what I was born to without any choice to begin with. After I manage to function to the end, if there's a Wikipedia Angel in some heavenly afterlife, then that individual is going to have a LOT to answer for. Like: "How come my life was rigged to be so hopeless from the get go, dude? Thanks a LOT. What was THAT?"

Know that the feeling of hopelessness will pass. I have come to realize that we ride the waves of PTSD. Just like the waves on the lake or ocean, there are crests of the wave and valleys. When you are in the valley, you cannot see, there is only water, but when you are on the crest, you can see for miles. Just like the lake wave, when you are in the valley, you will come back to the crest of the wave. Hang in there, your crest is coming.

Lilmissy, sorry you are feeling hopeless. That spark of light can be your friends here on DS that care about you. Wishing you peace, love and hope for a better tomorrow.

Lilmissy I know how you feel. Sometimes I have to pause and think of something that gives me hope. Sometimes I have to encourage myself. For me there is always someone praying me through the dark days. Life is werid.

Thinking of you and hope again today, lilmiss.

You and hope are in my thoughts once more on this day, too, lilmiss.

Thank you guys so much

I really appreciate your support & kindness & light & love

Gentlest of hugs <3

* btw way I’m really sorry that you guys can understand, I wish I could write more but I’m still riding the wave & hope tomorrow is a little better maybe

Gentle hug missy..... I have gone through really hopeless times as well when I was caregiving my folks.... Really dark times so I hear you

For me gratitude is really important during these times.... Another hug sweetie...xo