Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Support Group

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jerycrkdwlr
jerycrkdwlr
My wife seems to be more upset than helpfull since my doctor helped me to remember the mollestation that took place when i was 13.She also seemes to be comparing me with her clients by saying that they alll claim to have PTSD and ill probably claim im bi-polar also.She also thinks that i might meet another woman like my older brother who left his wife of 28yrs after he met his new love on a spiritual poetrey web.She also critisizes my short term loss of memories wich seems to be getting worse and untreatable as Hep-C progresses in my body. Ive quit trying to discuss my support or anything that relates with what im expierencing or learning about my illness's or recolections of my past.Weve been in seperate bedrooms since my wife had knee replacement in january.Last night i couldnt quit crying after watching the movie about the lead singer of the JoyLuck Club who committed suicide because of his marriage disolving and not being able to control his seizures.I really for the first time i related with him looking at the medicines in the cabinet for his seizures and not wanting to take them.I told myself that he didnt even have half of the problems that im dealing with and have more of a right to commit suicide then he did. I feel like i just want to call it quits and get out of this pain and all my problems.Theres more than i can handle this time.Please let me go
nelliefay
nelliefay
sorry you're not getting the support you need at home. It sounds like things are still really raw for you at this time, in terms of remembering the abuse. Please hang in there, it won't stay as raw as this forever.
jerycrkdwlr
jerycrkdwlr
Im out of fuel to stay fighting and only want to sleep so i can regain my energy to maybe come back another day.Ive made comebacks more than once and know there is another hill or a step on the ladder to go and climb..And i am sorry that another person has to deal with the complications of other illness's while dealing with PTSD. Its definately way more detrimental then i ever thought it could be..My therapist is talking about possible hospital treatment to get a base to work forward from. Hope all in this support group can stop doing the pecking order confrontation.You all seem to have something to add that i tryed to take in. LoL.
jerycrkdwlr
jerycrkdwlr
sorry strike pecking-Just people with a illness talking
jerycrkdwlr
jerycrkdwlr
Thank you jenny-I know if i cant walk then ill have to start crawling to stay alive and deal with it.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Just be good to you jery.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Good luck take care of yourself you may feel hopeless at times as I do but, other times confident for me I was sexually abused at 11 - about 16 by my stepbrother. I have aspergers syndrome as well. ANyway my parents still let him come to the house 2 - 3 times a week even when I am here. It ends up triggering me or making me nervous trying to avoid him. Luckly I am going to get to move into a condo or townhouse with my Dad and older brother Dave. I am 21 and still in college so I don't have enough money for my own place yet. I also am going to soon be learning to drive. I have struggled socially Isolating myself partly due to all the abuse and partly cause I always have struggled socially. I am a friendly and social person , but get nervous around people not always knowing what to say. Embarrassing myself sometimes by saying the wrong things even when they are not mean. Basically like you I am still healing and trying to gain my confidencet back while still wanting to vist my Mom, Step-Dad and dogs sometimes. I know I willl be able to , but I don't want to have my stepbrother to ever come over when I am visiting. I hope my Mom and step-Dad will finally gain understanding but if not I will just have to stay strong and hang in there.
jerycrkdwlr
jerycrkdwlr
Thank you for your support Kheybor 1 .You sound like another good person whos been damaged and deserve all the help possible.I still have those men in my mind everey hour and everey day.But God told me to get my mind off it today.I was walking my dogs up in forsest on a old closed logging road and was really trying hard to remember the last molestation when i just about screamed my head off when a nice freindly TIC decided to start nursing on my poor nipple on my chest.The lord works in mysterious ways. AMEN
mysooners
mysooners
the one thing you need most is support. I hope your wife will begin to understand what you are suffering through and give you he support you need from her. We will be here for you of course.

Try very hard to keep your dark thoughts away.
deleted_user
deleted_user
You are not your wife's client. She is your wife. She needs to listen and give support and not advice. If she can't do that, you need to stop confiding in her. I know she wants to help, but she needs to know how she can help being your wife, not your therapist.
Community LeaderMid
Mid
We have a set boundary of what we say in our house when it comes to how someone is dealing with their medical conditions.
When a professional steps into the door of the home, they take off the professional hat, put on the partner hat.
No if, and, or but about this boundary.
As a partner, support of the partner is positive, and yes, sometimes, it means keeping your opinion silent.
I'm aware of people like your wife who think the rules set up to keep this kind of situation from spiraling into crisis mode are not necessary.
For you, knowing now that the best support you can get from your wife is a professional one, it is time to keep her out of the loop.
Don't say anything about the change you are making for your well-being, just keep track of what works best for you.
Best wishes on healing and I agree, if inpatient treatment would give you a better foundation to change your pattern of behavior and action, go for it.
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