Hi Nowhere. Welcome to the forum.

The diff between normal PTS (Post Traumatic Stress) and PTSD is the way the trauma is processed. If something bad has happened, some time with a trauma counselor can go a long way in preventing the disorder. When in doubt, talk to someone about ^it^.

Gentle support, whichever way you take it. Healing hopes.

How do I find a counsellor? Do they charge a lot?

How to find a counselor and how much they charge varies allot for where you are and your current circumstances. You have not shared any of that, and that's okay. If you are still in school, you could start with a school nurse and/or counselor. Many police stations have victims services to offer. Family/private medical doctors can be another source of referrals. Some areas have community clinics available.

Try to find a place in your home where you feel secure and then stay there till you can calm yourself and think rationally. My personal favorite is in my closet with lots of blankets and pillows. I have a deadbolt on my bedroom door but that doesn't stop the nasty memories. Music and coloring books help me. You could definately benefit from counseling. Many have sliding scales. Even if you talk to one who doesn't they should be able to make recommendations for you. Lots of support and hugz.

I told my mum. I was so scared. I thought she wouldn't believe me but she did. I feel so much relief.

I'm turning cartwheels for you on the Chautauqua Ridge, Nowhe. Way to move ahead in small, manageable steps. May the healing mysteries guide you.

Yay mum for having the wisdom to listen.

Continued support and healing hopes, Nowhe.

Thank you. It all still feels so wrong and alien. I think I'm still in shock. I can't believe he would do this.

Nowheregirl, I'm glad you found us. At the bottom of every page here at DS there is a link called "Crisis Resources." A ton of phone number pop up. Just pick the right one and get your cell phone out and call. Here, I'm pasting the list in here for you so you don't even have to scroll down and click. Much support to you.

Suicide Prevention / Depression

USA: Hopeline (Suicide): 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)
USA: Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-8255)
USA: Teen Covenant House Nineline: 1-800-999-9999
USA: SOS Teen Hotline: 1-800-355-0660
USA: Directory of local helplines / centers
UK: Samaritans (Nat'l and local): 116 123 or jo@samaritans.org
CAN: Directory of helplines / centers
Global directory of suicide hotlines
Rape, Abuse & Domestic Violence

USA: Nat'l. Center For Missing & Exploited Children: 1-800-THE-LOST (5678)
USA: Childhelp (Child Abuse): 1-800-4ACHILD (4453)
USA: Nat'l. Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
USA: Safe Horizons Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-621-HOPE (4673)
USA: RAINN Nat'l. Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)
USA: Nat'l. Center on Elder Abuse: 1-800-677-1116
USA: National Runaway Switchboard:1-800-RUNAWAY (1-800-786-2929) or text: 66008
UK: Women's Aid Domestic Violence Helpline: 0808 2000 247
Global directory of abuse hotlines / resources
Substance Abuse / Alcoholism

USA: Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration: 800-662-HELP (4357)
UK: Drinkline: Nat'l. Alcoholism Helpline: 0300 123 1110
NZ: Alcohol / Drug Helpline: 0800 787 797
Gay / Lesbian Issues

USA: GLBT National Help Center (Gay & Lesbian): 1-888-843-4564
UK: LGBT+ Switchboard: 0300 330 0630
Medical Emergencies

USA: Nat'l. Poison Help : 1-800-222-1222
Women's Health / Pregnancy / Sexual Health

USA: Planned Parenthood: 1-800-230-PLAN
USA: Directory of state HIV/AIDS hotlines