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I am very good at suppressing my emotions, to the point that I can't even identify some of them anymore. Whenever I get emotional or am in a situation where I should be, this part of me just shuts down. It's like a reflex, I can't really control it.
Which is what I am trying to work on.
So, I've never cried from a movie or a TV-show even when everyone else is because the emotional part of me just shuts itself off long before that can happen (I rarely cry at all, except from physical pain. The last time I cried because of emotions was about a year and a half ago. Anyway, getting off track here.)
Today was the first time I cried from that kind of stuff, I actually managed to keep myself from emotionally shutting down. Now I somehow feel rediculously accomplished. Just a small step, but it's something.
The rest of my life is still an absolute mess though. (Meh. I really should practise that positive-thinking thing.)
Which is what I am trying to work on.
So, I've never cried from a movie or a TV-show even when everyone else is because the emotional part of me just shuts itself off long before that can happen (I rarely cry at all, except from physical pain. The last time I cried because of emotions was about a year and a half ago. Anyway, getting off track here.)
Today was the first time I cried from that kind of stuff, I actually managed to keep myself from emotionally shutting down. Now I somehow feel rediculously accomplished. Just a small step, but it's something.
The rest of my life is still an absolute mess though. (Meh. I really should practise that positive-thinking thing.)
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Sometimes, I think I have ODD. I can be oppositional. It seems that the only times that I feel like cleaning are when I should be doing something else or I have to go somewhere. Well, not everytime but most of the time. Yesterday, I was supposed to be doing online training for work but instead, I decided to work on my kitchen table. Most of the time, I don't know where to start and give...
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I have a possible new diagnosis to discuss with my therapist tomorrow. It might be the answer to a question that I have had since I was 19. It's called Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria (RSD). It happens to a large percentage of people with ADHD, which I have. Actually, I have been watching videos about ADD/ADHD lately. I remember my Mom telling me that she watched a show on ADD and she...
The first step is always the hardest. That is, indeed, an impressive accomplishment, made all the more impressive BECAUSE the rest of your life is a mess. If the rest of your life was neat and tidy, I'd be a-shrugging like a lady engineer at a high heel convention.
And. . .
You already are practicing that positive thinking thing. Yea, you put yourself down, but ya remembered and reminded yourself. Small steps, Neo. Congratulate yourself for a job well-done. Do something to celebrate to add some positive reinforcement.
Take it one small thing and one small moment at a time....
Thanks for this great news!