Not to that extent. I watched a guy in front of me on the road die right in front of my eyes, but he wiped his motorbike and hit the curb.

I'm really sorry that happened. I would say that if talking about it and being open is helping you, then maybe you could see a therapist? A good trauma therapist can really help get things in perspective. I do well with simple talk therapy, so maybe it can help you too.

Again, I'm sincerely sorry you're going through this. I think you're brave to want to deal with it and can talk about it, and you aren't trying to jam it down some dark hole and forget about it. I respect your spirit.

I am very sorry to hear the accident claimed a life. Remember that word accident. It was not intentional.
I am not sure who they are that are telling you, you have PTSD. If it is not a qualified mental health specialist telling you this, don't listen to them. Not everyone who experiences a trauma gets PTSD. I am not a qualified professional mental health expert but I feel it is too soon to tell if it is PTSD or a normal reaction to a tragic event.
If you are concerned about PTSD or just for good mental health after such an event, I would suggest seeking out a good trauma counselor. Perhaps see a psychiatrist first to get a proper diagnosis, in Canada they are the only ones who can diagnose a mental health problem. Then find a counselor to work with. Something like this can easily become PTSD if it is not treated and given your note, you could use to talk to someone other than your family.
Don't get me wrong family support is a big part of recovery.
All the best I am so sorry this has happened.

I was in an accident like that in. which I fell asleep at the wheel and hit an elderly couple's car. They were on the way to his cancer treatment. No one died in their car, but it came close to happening.

I was taken to court and convicted of "careless and imprudent driving." That's a misdemeanor like a DUI or DWI for those like me who weren't even under the influence of a substance when they had their accident.

I already had PTSD at the time of my accident, so the accident just made symptoms already present worse. A therapist and meds got me through it all. I started attending my first support group meeting at my therapist's suggestion at that time, too.

I still keep up my psychiatric support now years later. I see him tomorrow, Monday, in fact. I really recommend something like it for you, too, just speaking from my own personal experience.

I want to thank you all for your support and reading my story. I am going to get trauma therapy as I know flashbacks could be a problem for me in the future. I’m not as emotionally unstable as I was for the past few days however, I know I need help to recover from this, Im finding it difficult to move on in my life without thinking about the tragedy that happened that night.

None of my accidents have included fatalities, but I suffered Post Traumatic Stress with every single one of them. Dealing with the PTS can help head off the "D" of the Disorder.

Sending lots of healing hopes for your recovery, Baglady. Your level of awareness of what is going on is a HUGE healing hope, in itself.

Hope healing happens here.