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Today is going to be a challenge for me....
Saturdays are the day that my husband usually goes fishing and I usually relax at home. We have structured it this way because I have a hard time with expectations. In the past, I was the one who made the decisions and structured our days but over the past two years it has become unbearable to me to do such things. Expectations cause me to panic! I NEVER know how I am going to feel from moment to moment, let alone day to day and I cannot handle the pressure of it all. So, I choose not to put myself in the situation. I choose low-stress....simplicity.
Today (like many times in the past) my husband has decided to spend the day with me but with no true plans. He, of course, has asked me repeatedly what I want to do, and I have in turn, nervously told him "I don't know" and that he should decide. Ultimately, I still ended up choosing because that is what he is used to (after 22 years of marriage). Of course, the entire process and the anticipation of a day out has me feeling foggy and anxious. The expectations of others and the potential LET DOWN always does me in!
Hoping to push through these feelings......
Saturdays are the day that my husband usually goes fishing and I usually relax at home. We have structured it this way because I have a hard time with expectations. In the past, I was the one who made the decisions and structured our days but over the past two years it has become unbearable to me to do such things. Expectations cause me to panic! I NEVER know how I am going to feel from moment to moment, let alone day to day and I cannot handle the pressure of it all. So, I choose not to put myself in the situation. I choose low-stress....simplicity.
Today (like many times in the past) my husband has decided to spend the day with me but with no true plans. He, of course, has asked me repeatedly what I want to do, and I have in turn, nervously told him "I don't know" and that he should decide. Ultimately, I still ended up choosing because that is what he is used to (after 22 years of marriage). Of course, the entire process and the anticipation of a day out has me feeling foggy and anxious. The expectations of others and the potential LET DOWN always does me in!
Hoping to push through these feelings......
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Hey all, i know its been quite awhile since i posted on here. Its been a summer all right. Its been something else........... You know how they say not to open the can of worms? Well a few months ago i decided to find out what my due date would have been for my first baby, the one conceived by r***. My baby would have been due on March 4th of 2006. They would be 20 years old. I was R**** on June...
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My day...today...misplaced my debit card...didn't realize it until I got to the register after shopping to a full cart. Used a different debit card and pulled apart everything looking for missing debit card before I left parking lot. Got home, dropped keys. So now I have a missing debit card, missing keys. A full cartload to unload and put away. I got everything put away.Dumped purse for a...
Hopes of pushing through the feelings never have worked for me. What has worked for me is letting myself do something about it in small bytes and long chews. Kinda like you did with making your husband ask several times instead of greeting his expectations with your agenda planner already filled out and open to the "correct" hour.
And then, of course, there is keeping my own expectations real. I don't get to change 22 years of habit with a single wave of my wishy wand... It takes time and persistence.
Just mine...
Gentle support while you sort your own, jl.
Thanks everyone. :)
No idea if tha thelps, but I live that situation, I know about that expectation demon in my head....
GEntle support,
Leo