OMG this so resonates with me right now. I’m going through a really hard time and I find it almost impossible to open up to anyone for the fact I’m so sick of what people say, do or act like in return, it just tends to make things worse and it’s the last thing I can deal with right now when I’m literally hanging on by a tiny thread.

I don’t need you to say it will be ok because as you said it’s not, and it hasn’t been for a very long time.

I don’t need you to fix me. I don’t need you to provide me with answers, or solutions etc.

I am just hurt, dying inside and scared, so all I want is comfort and love from someone who actually loves me and cares. To know that I’m not completely alone in this world.

The Circle of Life, eh? I talk about it in my death and dying classes I teach nursing students at my community college. It meant a lot for me when I saw Elton John sing it live in concert last year. Validating!!

Right now just to know im not alone. I feel alone again and mom is leaning on me so much right now and its hurting me mentally. She wants me to promise her dad is not going to die from his lung cancer. How can i promise that? she is SO depressed and super anxious and wants to talk on the phone all day long. She has other people that wnat her to lean on them but she wont, only me. and im overwhelmed.

KCxo, yes this resonates with a lot of us, glad you find this revealing.


Circle of emotions, Muji:-) For Native Americans, a lot of us have tattoos, arm and leg bands. I only have arm bands, but we never complete the circle. The circle of life For us is the evolution of life birth, your life journey, death and rebirth. It also has to do with earth, wind, fire and water and the 4 sacred colors normally yellow, black, red and white representing up above, down below, East and West and the center of the Great Spirit. There is also Father Sky, and Mother Earth. It’s An individuals path towards personal growth and realization and additionally, healing, health and balance.

Probably different than what you teach.

AJ, I am so sorry. You are not alone. Your right, no one can make the promise that someone will not leave this earth. I went through this with my mom. The important thing is to acknowledge your feelings and to remember to take time to take care of your needs. Your mom in scared.. All you can do is be there for her. It might be worth sitting down with her and talk about how each of you are feeling, how it’s affecting each of you, and what you each need for emotional support and well being. This can help you support each other during this very difficult time.