I know about that PTSD feeling in crowds. I went to an outdoor concert downtown in my city last night, enjoyed the band's playing a Santana oldie, and then decided to cruise on back home. Back home, though, kids on my block were setting off firecrackers until midnight in anticipation of traditional fireworks on the Fourth here in the USA. They mean no harm and I enjoyed fireworks as a kid, too, until war engulfed the country where I lived overseas and that sound turned to the sound of gunfire and death. A sound fireworks trigger now for me.

Hope you are able to handle the crowds for Canada Day. I was on my own. Perhaps with a friend it would have been easier. I hope so for you with your boyfriend. It sounds like he's really supportive, you're lucky to have him. Let us know how it goes, OK, Krissy?

What Muji said:-) Big hugs.

Thanks so much Muji and Leo. Being on this site really helps, im glad i joined. o, going to be going home before the fireworks as well since i do not enjoy them much either. but proud that i am leaving the house.

there you go, baby steps - but that is more than baby steps! so congratulations on going and i'm glad for you to have the boyfriend with understanding but it is You that is making the decision to go out : ) please don't forget to pat yourself on the back when you get back home xo

fireworks are something i'm not ready for either, although i will hear them. i have dogs and can cuddle up with those guys. trying to help them feel better, helps me. hugs