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CiarAnn
CiarAnn

Im meeting my new and third  therapist Wednesday, I'm hoping this one sticks for as long as I need her. I'm not too happy about restarting healing process, I just want to get in to it. With that said I'm having a huge problem, I feel as if I don't belong anymore. Like I don't fit in with my family aND friends anymore. I don't feel safe any more my family wants me to talk to them but every time I'm around I feel as if it's my fsult. I feel like what my dad did was my fault, even though it wasnt. I'm scared, I'm scared of everyone around me like they will hurt me too. I can't tell the, I'm afraid of them. They wouldn't understand, that I don't know who I can and can't trust. I think I should just leave


LillyPotter
LillyPotter
hugs, Ciar. that can be good stuff to write down for your first meeting with the therapist. ask for suggestions to set boundaries with your family about talking about this.

none of this was your fault. it is always so hard to accept this, to really believe it. it is probably not something they should be pressing you to talk about now. you are/have been traumatised and need to be/are going to be in therapy.

often well meaning parents start these sorts of conversations - my mother did and it turned into her feeling guilty - it became about her. this is not about anyone but you. this happened to you and you are going to counseling. you can only help you.

it would be great if your mother and (maybe) sister went to counseling - that would be awesome if they did.
i hope they do, that would be an excellent and healthy thing for them to do. it would be the most helpful, supportive thing your mom could do to help you right now. maybe your counselor can write a little note suggesting it and the name/number of someone for mom?? this happens all the time, this is not unusual and many families of victims go to counseling - i would go so far as to say it is what people do. it would be unusual for them not to go.

more hugs, you are doing so good writing about how you are feeling here. it is brave to do it, not an easy thing to do.
CiarAnn
CiarAnn
Thank you so much for your kind words, I'm glad there are people on here that can is some shape or form understand me. It feels good to be understood
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
The therapist who brought me to real PTSD healing wasn't my first or my second, either. In fact, I think it was my third. Lilly said it's brave to write about things here, and I agree, just adding that it's brave to keep knocking on doors until you find the right healer for you.
arfie
arfie
I have been through more therapists than I care to count, sometimes through my own instability, sometimes through being handed off like a proverbial hot potato. I used to feel like it was starting over when I had break in a new therapist, but my 20-20 hindsight no longer believes that. I now believe that it is necessary to plant many seeds in any healing journey and that germinating and nurturing those seeds takes time. The short-lived therapists were the seed-planters. So I believe. Proof unavailable.

Be gentle and patient with the process, Ciar. Continued support while you sort.

Time has no meaning in the healing process." ~Algonquin proverb
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