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MarahIdellCatLuvr
MarahIdellCatLuvr

Does anyone else keep themselves awake?


Trying to figure something out is the main reason but sometimes I feel so depressed I need to talk to someone before I will let myself sleep.


Tonight I don’t know what it is but I can’t settle down. My chest is tight and beating fast. My muscles in general are tight. My jaw hurts, probably from being so stiff. And my breathing is just off.


 I’m overwhelmed, in over my head, doubting and questioning everything and I’m scared, heartbroken, humiliated and angry.


 I don’t like today but I think I had less thoughts about wishing I were dead. And I haven’t had thoughts about killing myself in several days. I just feel like I don’t belong in this skin. I don’t know how to change that. I feel like I’m on the outside looking in when I’m around others, even my kids. I keep up the facade that I’m happy. 

arfie
arfie
Not to pick nits, but keeping myself awake is an entirely different spiel than insomnia. In addition to insomnia, I tend to nod off at the most inopportune moments, even when I've had plenty of sleep,, so the distinction is important to me. The two require entirely different tool sets.

The symptoms you describe here sound like my insomnia. It bites like a mad dog. The good news is that I don't suffer much insomnia these days.

I hope writing it out helped some. Putting ^it^ into words helps me allot.
Beatha
Beatha
Hugs, Marah. I hope you got to sleep. I hear you about keeping up the facade. I'm afraid I have no advise...

*support*
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