i'm sorry,((((((arfie))))))....as terrible as it feels right now,it's good to let it all out...
sorry if that is of little comfort to you,but please do know i care,and am thinking of you....

I'm sorry Arfie. Here for you reaching out my hand in solidarity. I hope a spot of comfort finds you tonight.
(((((Gentle hugs)))))

I normally get mad when I cry. After I almost always feel better or not as bad. Sadness is a hard emotion to deal with. I hope the crying has helped to lighten your load and sharing has eased it also. Hugs.

Hope you are feeling better today

I am, indeed, feeling better today. I drifted, tearfully, into a deep, sound sleep and woke refreshed.

I used to get angry, before, during and after I felt a need to cry, but I was one angry wench back then. Anger was pretty much my defining emotion. Learning how to channel my anger made a big diff in that equation. It is MUCH easier to handle my emotions one at a time.

I'm glad that you slept well sweetie and are feeling better today.... I find a good cry can be cathartic..... Gentle hug sweetie....xo

it is good news that sinking into and allowing yourself to feel your sadness and cry, led to a good deep sleep. more gentle hugs

Thanks guys.

I am going to pass on the 4th night of exposure therapy, more because of the rain in the forecast for tonight than the shadowy light glare. Packing a wet camp bites the big one. I am pretty much packed and ready to get back to the river scouting.

This morning finds me wondering if the exposure therapy was actually helpful. My unprovable senses say that last night's weepery was triggered by the park lights, as usual, but instead of the PTSD business as usual, I let the images wash over me and cried 'em out. Yes, very cathartic.

Thanks again, guys. I'm on the road again. Yay me!!! I finally got to see the Upper Mississippi River Valley and many of the watersheds which feed her. It takes a mind-boggling number of watersheds to keep the Mighty Mississip flowing. Don't know that I will live long enough to count them all, much less know them all.

It truly is an amazing world we live in, warts and all.

Yeah, every semester when I teach my 3 psych classes with "Tuesdays with Morrie" in them, I can't avoid how he talked about what you're going through. It's as if you and Morrie are shedding light on something everybody striving for awareness is going to go through in doing a life review at some point. It's just that we don't have enough people like you and him willing to say so openly, arfie. Thanks for sharing. Much support to you. I want to learn from you. Here's Morrie's take:

"Grieve and mourn for yourself not once or twice, but again and again. Morrie Schwartz"
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