Yesterday my primary doctor referred me to an orthopedic surgeon and I went to him yesterday.  He was really nice; his wife's from Colombia so he cared about my Spanish language background, that I teach Spanish at my college, and where I grew up in South America.  He gave me a big strong ankle brace to wear at night to sleep in because when I roll my body over with neuropathy numbness I twist my ankle in my sleep and re-injure it.  It was nice to have a specialist doctor address that problem so directly so this ankle sprain can heal.  I had an ankle sprain on my other ankle in May that put me on crutches.  This one on my right ankle has taken longer to heal; it's lasted since July 19th.

The doctor's office was backed up, though, so though I had a 10am appointment the doctor didn't even see me until noon, and it took time to him to examine me and so on.  I made it back to school at 1:30pm before my 2pm class.  I got intercepted outside my classroom door by my boss who let me know she was upset with me there in the hall yesterday after getting back from the doctor.  I don't think she meant to, but it really added stress to a bad week.  

I had that student blow up at me on Tuesday for calling on them in class to repeat after me in Spanish for pronunciation.  Now my boss told me that 4 students had questions about setting up their online Lab accounts, kind of like setting up Daily Strength accounts.  While I was at the doctor's office they called my boss's telephone number because she is Chair of the Humanities Division in the college phone book.  I stayed late and hour and a half after work emailing those 4 students with reassuring instructions to help them set up their accounts.  

My boss was really upset about their calling her.  I don't see it as a crisis, but it was reported higher up to the Dean me as one.  Reporting me like that worries me as to whether it could lead to a pattern of complaints made about me that could lead to attempting to dismiss me for being "incapable" of doing my job even though I have tenure.  I am so glad I went to HR in 2016 when I got tenure and had the VP and the HR head meet with me to go on record with my PTSD so I could be protected under the Americans with Disabilities Act against dismissal like that.  

Sorry to vent, it all stresses me out just going in to work every day.  Maybe I should never have come here to this poor public community college when I could have gotten hired at a better four year private college way back when.  I wanted to be of service to poorer students, but I'm finding the situation to be stressful with my PTSD.  Now I just want to hold on until early retirement in 2 years.

I'm asking for  your opinions, y'all, as to how safe my job security really is.  Do you all think I can do that?  I'm really pedaling hard, but I had to go to the doctor, and while I was away it seemed my job situation got precarious again like something that keeps creeping up on me day after day lately.  I'm frightened to go to work again today, so that's why I ask: what do you think?  I had tenure in 2000, but a new president closed my departmend and got away with firing 6 tenure instructors.  So I wonder. Is my job safe?