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subwayxkid
subwayxkid

After being diagnosed in 2015 with PTSD from my abusive upbringing I've spent the past few years either stuck in bed, or doing anything I could that I believed would relieve some of the pain and the anxiety from my life. Back in March I started using speed as a way to push myself even when my body told me it couldn't. I used speed for the past nearly 5 months to work 5 days a week, sometimes 13 hours a day with little to no sleep in between. I lost 54 pounds since mid March using this drug in combination with an eating disorder I've struggled with since Junior High. Finally being completely sober from speed, alcohol or adderall I realized how completely exhausted my body and mind are. I took on everyone elses problems to do what I could to ignore my own. I thought that if I clouded my mind and just went head first into everything and ignored what my body was telling me that it would just disappear and I was oh so wrong. Now I find myself wanting to do nothing but sleep, depressed more than I've been in ages and so physically exhausted and in pain I just can't wait till I can go back to sleep. I feel completely alone in this world anymore

LillyPotter
LillyPotter
hey, welcome to the group. i'm so sorry for the traumas that brought you here but glad you found us. you are going to find lots of people here that understand, i'm one of them. gentle hugs i hope you can get some good rest, it takes a lot of resting to feel like you got some sometimes
donnawanda
donnawanda
Welcome, friend. You will not be alone anymore since you found this group. Please post and share as much or as little as you feel comfortable with.
arfie
arfie
Another welcome to assure you that you are not alone, not even when you choose to ignore the rest of us going through similar struggles. PTSD be one sticky, icky snot ball. Yup, addiction is among the many yucks that can stick to that ewey, gooey ball.

Hope you find healing companionship here. Subwayxkid. Got something texty we can call you for short?
subwayxkid
subwayxkid
Thank you guys very much for being so welcoming, I appreciate it to my soul. I'm hoping this will really be a way to not feel so alone. You can call me Josh.
Krissy36
Krissy36
Hey, how long have you been clean? I was on crystal meth hardcore for a few years and I was STILL fucked up for a year after that when I was clean. I had this weird rigid thing I did with my fingers even though I was clean, people still thought I was using. Also I slept a lot too.. If you need encouragement or to talk message me. I partied with meth occasionally but then started to use it more and more for bartending and school- it worked hood for awhile then I just destroyed my life because of it...it's good you stopped you should be proud of yourself, it only gets worse, believe me.
orion777
orion777
The pain and anxiety are overwhelming. Sometimes it's hard to get through a day. Do you like reading and meditations? I find this helpful.
getbacktoserenity
getbacktoserenity
Your body and mind need time to adjust. After stopping the use of any drug (psychotropics included), you will have some after effects. Withdrawal, discontinuation syndrome. Give yourself time to get back to normal.
subwayxkid
subwayxkid
Ending day 3 since I've used anything (including cigarettes) My mood has improved some and I've been doing my best to just do normal day to day things best I can I.E. cleaning, taking care of my animals, etc. Biggest thing I've had an issue with is interacting with others. I have a short fuse and just don't want any of it.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Congrats on 3 days clean, subwayxkid. Sorry for what brought you here, but glad you found us. My first support group was Alanon, the support group for friends and family of alcoholics. Have you ever thought of using the support of Narcotics Anonymous? If not for Alanon I wouldn't be here, so there's a lot of support to be found in those groups.
subwayxkid
subwayxkid
I'll definitely be scouring the other groups on DS because I have many areas of my life/mind that I would love a hand up. I appreciate the love that's been shown just on this post. You guys are a blessing in this gray world.
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