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4 Years ago today was the last time Dad ever spoke. I got the last 3 minutes with him whie he could talk before they put the ventilator in becuase Mom knew i needed it. Only we did not know that 4 days later he would die on full life support. I miss my Dad so much i cant stand the emotinoal pain and that i never got a real goodbye from him. They hosptial did not let me back in. His lastwords were him tellign me over and over to never forget how much he loves me. He wnated me to know by saying that that i was always his daughter i know him, even before the adoption he treated us as his own. I miss him so much and ithurts so bad. My last visions of him is him hooked up to everything in the ICU......... Hooked up to life support and them prepping him for his ventilator they PROMISED hewould only need it 3 to4 days to let his lungs have a break. well hepassed away on full lifesupport 4 days later........... but they PROMISED hewould come off it alive!!!!!!!! His cancer had improved in his lung mesleothelioma but thats the ONLY scan the oncologist had redone becuase 3 weeks before his PET scan was clear for any other cancer. But within those three weeks thecancer was everywhere and caused him to go septic as well. Which we never knew he had sepsis for THREE DAYS until we got his death certificates! I agree with Mom, that ICU Dr knew hewas dying but never told us. I alsothink Dad knew he wastheway he wanted me to always remember heloved me. Noone can say a bad word about Dad and be honest. If there was ever a Man who would go to Heaven it was Dad and he knew he was. He hadno doubts thankfully. No i am not turning this religious but just ourbeliefs which give me comfort on that. Heis up in heaven with my 5 babies i miscarried and they could not have a better grandpa. Ionly saw my Dad cry 4 times and the last time i ever sawhim he was cryingand tellign me how much he loved me and had a strength he had not had in 6months gripping my hand not wanting to let go. Iknow nowhe knew it wasthe last time he would ever see me on Earth and Mom gave me the last 3 minutes beforethe ventilator so i couldhear his voice. I treasure i was the last person to hear his voice otherhtan the nurses. I miss him so much ithurts sobad....... 4 years............ Sunday is 4 years since he passed.
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
It helps me to get out family photos and reflect on all of the wonderful times we had
I used to get lost in the sad times of my family declining to the point I'd forgotten almost all of the good times
Do you think it might help you to get out family photo's and remember the good times sweetie?
Big hug and a blessing..xo
Just struggling so much.
Also found out Monday i STILL have a UTI but its weaker thankfully. So am on cipro at the moment. Had dermatolgy for a whole body check today, we did scrape off a bigger mole its like a cross between a mole and skin tag and brown and very dark brown almost black. She doesnt THINK its melanoma but we will know soon. Not soon enough for me. Its really painful and itchy tonight. Rightnear the crease of my arm and it was alreayd irritated because everyone would pull on it ordogs jumping on me etc it was quite big.