Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
Sorry to bother anyone but I have been having suicidal thoughts since before Christmas and as much as I try to toughness up..well I can't shake them. It seems like now I am even becoming more resigned and I have been looking at taking out additional life insurance policies. I have also been planning to place my horse into a nice home (I know the people) where he would be well taken care of until his death. My cat, I am not sure yet. I don't have a spouse -boyfriend, children or really any friends this would affect. I figure if I take out enough in insurance, add what I have in savings, it would pay for any expense incurred and hopefully my life insurance policies would benefit my ex husband and my younger brother's medical bills. I also need to look into a living will I suppose. I have tried Therapy, antidepressants, and prayer. Perhaps a person just finally shuts down after so many years and so many people abusing them.
I really don't know why I am writing this as the other time I got to this point, I told no one. I failed and went on to 7 more years of nightmares and additional abuse.
Maybe its in the hope that someone who has anything left or anyone left to cling to..will take the steps to get free. That is my hope for all who are abused..hope and peace.
I want to thank everyone on this board for their support.
I really don't know why I am writing this as the other time I got to this point, I told no one. I failed and went on to 7 more years of nightmares and additional abuse.
Maybe its in the hope that someone who has anything left or anyone left to cling to..will take the steps to get free. That is my hope for all who are abused..hope and peace.
I want to thank everyone on this board for their support.
art therapy. secret underrated force in the universe that only awesome people know about.
I've planned my own demise in the past, so I'm not just typing random words here.
It seems you have people giving you some negative messages. No one can really speak for another, and your dad CANNOT speak for your deceased mom!!! Impossible!
And if you avoid bars and such, that is normal and healthy!!! It's called introversion. I'm a happy healthy introvert myself (minus the abuse).
You may look at the sunshine you think you see all around you, and think "I'm worn down to just a tiny ember. I'm not contributing to any of this." But the reality is, some of the people around you don't have that sunlight - some people are in night right now, or are about to go into it - and they are clinging tightly to that little bit of warmth and light from you. You do contribute. You are important. Hang on, and nurture your flame, both for yourself and for those you love. And those you haven't met yet.
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