Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
The court date is tomorrow. The victim advocate is not sure what the prosecutor is going to decide to do, said she was deciding at the last minute.
The ex is threatening to file some kind of discrimination case against the county because the officer taking my statement and filing the report made a huge deal over him being muslim in it and did (even in my opinion) make the report extremely inflammatory.
I'm broke, unable to pay my rent on time, and overall feeling very shaken today. I can't see a therapist any time soon, as I have no insurance, no money to pay mine at this time and have to wait for them to verify I have nothing before I can see one of the income-based therapists.
And I feel like I would sell my soul before asking my family for any help. I have told them so many times when asked why I get into messes or do something stupid instead of asking for help that it is because I have asked and asked and asked and they always say no, lecture me on my responsibilities as an adult and my mistakes in getting in this position in the first place! I went to them today and was going to go ahead and ask and I just couldn't bring myself to do it. My last bit of self just would not take the risk of the rejection or the "talk".
I am praying and absolutely refuse to lose my faith, no matter the outcome of the next few days.
The ex is threatening to file some kind of discrimination case against the county because the officer taking my statement and filing the report made a huge deal over him being muslim in it and did (even in my opinion) make the report extremely inflammatory.
I'm broke, unable to pay my rent on time, and overall feeling very shaken today. I can't see a therapist any time soon, as I have no insurance, no money to pay mine at this time and have to wait for them to verify I have nothing before I can see one of the income-based therapists.
And I feel like I would sell my soul before asking my family for any help. I have told them so many times when asked why I get into messes or do something stupid instead of asking for help that it is because I have asked and asked and asked and they always say no, lecture me on my responsibilities as an adult and my mistakes in getting in this position in the first place! I went to them today and was going to go ahead and ask and I just couldn't bring myself to do it. My last bit of self just would not take the risk of the rejection or the "talk".
I am praying and absolutely refuse to lose my faith, no matter the outcome of the next few days.
When you are there, lean on whatever support networks there are, and do not engage with him.
I'm sorry things are not going well at the moment, but it will get easier. Good luck to you and stay strong.
I pray that GOD's will be done, and that you have comfort and peace. Please believe that GOD is a just and righteous GOD. Sureley as I type these words please trust and believe that your ex will recieve his due.
Tomorow will be a day of victory for you, and GOD's hand of protection is on you.
All that has been taken will be restored.
It may not be on your time schedule, but GOD is good all the time, and he loves you.
Have faith sister, and continue to perservere DO NOT let the devil steal your joy. So do not worry about tomorow (i know its hard not to), because God has it all under control.
Your ex can file all the complaints he wants-but if it's not GOD's will for those complaints to be recognized, nothing will come of it.
I also personally do happen to believe in prayer...and faith... and also that having faith that all will work out...Really truly helps..I have see it many times..
Wishing you more faith!
I also wish you ALL the best with the outcome in court.....
Maybe when you detach more from him and his abuse of you..all that energy that we often put into fixing them. and dealing with them. and recovering from their behaviours...You could then start to put into yourself.....And all in your life would then likely hugely improve...
One day at a time...and i agree, keep asking about and looking into any available supports to you...
maybe you can ring a domestic violence shelter and just speak to someone there?...Every little thing helps....
Best of luck....Hang on tight....Hopefully justice will be done very soon...and I hope everything then improves....
Do please let us know how you get on?...Hugs!
Lean on your advocate. Mine literally held my hand!
This is going to be okay! You are going to be okay!!!!
And yes - prayer goes a long way!!!! I had no money as I had been homeschooling, and I had no employment, and I had no place to go when this happened. All I had was faith and God please help us through this. Please guide me and protect me.
I so understand about family. Those kinds of words kept me from reaching out to. It also helped me to reach out to a better support system and others that have helped me. A healthier support system. I hope you can at least talk to your therapist. She might be able to work out something with you? If not - you have all of us here to lean on too!
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers today!
((((HUGS))))))