Personality Disorders Support Group
Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.
Hi I'm sorry if this post is long but I'm to this board (but not to DailyStrength) and want to tell my story, I just feel like I need to talk. I don't really know why it's taken me so long to join this community as I was dx with BPD traits a while ago now. I guess I didn't feel like I belonged here because I only have traits...not the whole disorder. I chose to join in the end as the traits I do have...do have an effect on me and my mood.
I'm also dx Bipolar and my pdoc has said that he thinks when my Bipolar showed itself between 14 - 18 slowly getting worse. That it's possible that it caused my BPD traits to show themselves also.
My traits that I suffer from are -
Abandonment Issues:
I don't have issues with being left alone or if a partner was to break up with me. I seem to have trouble coping with the idea that I won't always have my Mum. I'm not sure if it would com under this but it's the only thing I can think of putting it down to. My Mum is so supportive and understanding and I feel like if I didn't have my Mum, or when my Mum is no longer with me. I will just fall to pieces and won't be able to carry on.
Identity Disturbance:
Self-image issues, I suffer with Dissociation too which doesn't help with keeping reality in check. Everything seems...unreal somethimes. This is where the 'emptyness' comes into too. I also have peroids when I am 'confused' about my sexuality...I still can't be certain :S
Self Harm:
I cut when everything gets too much. It helps cope with suicidal ideations.
Mood Instability:
Obvious...mood swings which are not helped by the Bipolar. Severe depression, anger but with me I am unable to express it, so it stays locked away in me.
Anger:
Like I said...I do experience intense anger but instead of expressing it like most BPD people to...I can't...I just keep it all bottled up until I end up breaking down into tears.
So that's about it...anyway if you've managed to read all this...you certainly don't suffer with dissociation, lol. On a serious note...thank you if you have read this and are willing to reply. I just wanted to make myself an official member I guess so I can ask for and hopefully offer support in the future.
Thankyou
x-Bliss-x
I'm also dx Bipolar and my pdoc has said that he thinks when my Bipolar showed itself between 14 - 18 slowly getting worse. That it's possible that it caused my BPD traits to show themselves also.
My traits that I suffer from are -
Abandonment Issues:
I don't have issues with being left alone or if a partner was to break up with me. I seem to have trouble coping with the idea that I won't always have my Mum. I'm not sure if it would com under this but it's the only thing I can think of putting it down to. My Mum is so supportive and understanding and I feel like if I didn't have my Mum, or when my Mum is no longer with me. I will just fall to pieces and won't be able to carry on.
Identity Disturbance:
Self-image issues, I suffer with Dissociation too which doesn't help with keeping reality in check. Everything seems...unreal somethimes. This is where the 'emptyness' comes into too. I also have peroids when I am 'confused' about my sexuality...I still can't be certain :S
Self Harm:
I cut when everything gets too much. It helps cope with suicidal ideations.
Mood Instability:
Obvious...mood swings which are not helped by the Bipolar. Severe depression, anger but with me I am unable to express it, so it stays locked away in me.
Anger:
Like I said...I do experience intense anger but instead of expressing it like most BPD people to...I can't...I just keep it all bottled up until I end up breaking down into tears.
So that's about it...anyway if you've managed to read all this...you certainly don't suffer with dissociation, lol. On a serious note...thank you if you have read this and are willing to reply. I just wanted to make myself an official member I guess so I can ask for and hopefully offer support in the future.
Thankyou
x-Bliss-x
"Bipolar Disorder is essentiallymajordepressive accompanied by manic and hypomanic episodes.Manic episodes are periods of distinctly elevated,expansive,or irritable moods that last at least one week.Hypomanic episodes consist of four days of mild to moderate elevation of mood,improved and positive thinking,and increased energy levels.There are also periods during which symptoms of mania or hypomania occur with symptoms of depression,which are called mixed episodes.If an individual meets the criteria for both a major depressive and a manic episode,they are considered to have Bipolar 1 disorder.If the criteria for both a major depressive episode and a hypomanic episode are met,they are diagnosed with Bipolar 2 disorder.........Because of the significant changes in mood experienced by people with Bipolar disorder, this diagnosis is often inappropriately made for people with Borderline disorder,which means they recieve incorrect and ineffective treatment."
-'Borderline Personality Disorder Demystified.-Robert O.Friedel,MD.