I'll admitt it. I used to smoke pot in my teen years, but after I started having PA's I stopped. Actually, one time, years ago, I was out with some friends and they offered me some black hash. I noticed it had been in a jar of red liquid. I asked what it was and was told that the red liquid was to enhance the hash. I smoked it and I had a horrible experience. After my friend took me home, I spent the rest of the night on the phone with the Life Crisis Center. From that day on, I started having PA's. Recently during Christmas, my sister offered me some. She only smokes rarely, just to relax. I tried some and it relaxed me and I felt fine. She came recently and stayed with me for 3 days. She brought some with her. I smoked some. I felt fine. She left me some, but I just don't want to smoke it. I've thought about throwing it out, and I feel bad about that. Isn't that ridiculous? I'm just feeling guilty over smoking pot. I don't think that smoking pot, or drinking or smoking cigarettes will send you to hell. I am just feeling bad about it. I am also suddenely worried that it is going to make my anxiety worse, even though I was fine when I smoked it. Now that I'm alone, since my sister's gone back home, I just think about the fact that I smoked some pot, and I get anxious. This whole thing may sound weird, I know. And yet, marijuanna is completely natural,(besides the black hash I smoked years ago) unlike cigarettes(which I smoke). Cigarettes have so many more chemical additives in them. Why am I so bothered by this? If anyone has something to say that might help me, I would really appreciate it.